nearing christmas break.

it's been a while since i've logged on to the internet. :) christmas has gone. new year is yet to come. :) for the past few weeks....

. i, along with my filmpro groupmates, have made a movie entitled, "bond." :) it was pretty nice, having been part of a production. we spent around two nights just to film. got home at 1:05am and 2am, respectively. hahaha :) but it was really fun... loved the experience. loved the outcome even more. :)
to direct a film has always been my dream, and now it has partially come true :) hahaha ;) it might just be a school project. but the thing is, the group didn't treat it as a school project. :) it was something else... a dream waiting to come true. :)

.. we dealt with four shows. yes, we technical directed FOUR shows for the past weeks. a dance recital, a music production recital, a fashion show, and a SAO program. i do have to admit that we kind of slacked off during some programs for the fact that we were drained physically, emotionally, and mentally (and hey, i'm not exaggerating.) however, the experience was something else. we dealt with a lot of different people and learned to compromise as well as to lead. but yes, it was very tiring, esp. since the shows came one after the other. now i know what my professors meant when they said, "if you really want to earn money by technical directing, you'd have to kill yourself with shows first." :) hahahaha :) but really, i still wish we could at least experience one show that's outside school - the real world, as they say. :)

... got my course cards for the term. hehehe :) grades were good, and i'm happy. but still don't want the break to end. hahaha :)

.... went ice-skating at moa with college friends. it was fun seeing sonson skate. he was panting and holding on the rails for his dear life. hahaha :) he was so cute to look at :) ate lunch at tokyo tokyo then went ice skating then walked around, went to pupung's to eat again then went to starbucks. :) hahaha :) our trip was full of eating. :) enjoyed pupung's a lot, esp. since they moved to moa. (they used to have branch near csb.) their sisig is the best! :)

..... went out with high school friends on the 21st. ate dinner at conti's, greenhills. it was really, really fun being with them again. and this time around, i wasn't the only girl. woop-de-doo! :) hahahaha :) shared stories with yannie and her boyfriend, des, meme, michie, jack, cats, che che. :) too bad sophie had to leave early since she had an early flight the next day. :) fen, yanyan, johan, jimai, buddy, erick, and pochi went too :) it was just really fun having bonded with them again. :) hope to get together with them again some time soon... while our scheudule's not THAT hectic yet :) plus, hope that next time, the others will be able to go. :)

...... one of the negative things i've found out before christmas, though, was that some friends just aren't who they seem to be. you think that they're heaven-sent and that they'd do no harm to you. but, as the saying goes, "nobody's perfect." i guess it's just hard to see through those imperfections at times. esp. when those imperfections mean that they talk behind your back (backstabbing you) and that they put words in your mouth.
you see them smiling at you and talking to you like old times. you never think that they'd do something like that to you. but then you think again. you look at them once again. and you see a sneer underneath those smiles. you see something you've never seen before - betrayal and "kaplastikan."
i'm not perfect myself. and i admit that there are times i do say some things, esp. when i'm fed up with a certain situation. and yes, i do tend to talk behind some people's backs. so i guess i'm in no position to complain. i'm just saying that i hope and wish that i don't turn into someone like those who have done more harm to me through words than actions.

anyway, merry christmas! :) and happy new year. :)

eastwood.

*see the BIG fishbowl iced tea? :) hahaha :) [jack's loft - nov. 25, 2006]

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today's ahia han's birthday! :) so happy birthday to him! :)

went out with them yesterday. them = high school friends = johanan, jimai, erick, yanyan, fen, buddy, casper, and patsy. :) i was, yet again, the only girl in the group of boys who watched happy feet at eastwood city. :) believe it or not, we spent almost two hours in jimai's car just going to eastwood from manila. there was traffic everywhere :) hahaha :) it was fun... been a while since i've last gone out with friends, esp. high school ones.

happy feet was soooo cute! baby mumbles and baby gloria are the best! :) they're just soooo cute! :)

gloria: is it empty? can i keep it? (waaaaah!!!! :) hahahaha)

after the movie, we went to eat at jack's loft :) it was the first time i saw iced tea served in a fishbowl :) hahaha :) it was BIG. cool place to be - cozy and relaxing :)

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just something to brighten up one's day :)

fed up with myself.

that's all there is to explain.

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message: (1857 - on the way home)

sorry a while ago... mood swings got the best of me. guess that's why God never gives me someone i can love freely. that might be my lesson to learn. sometimes, it's just easier to put to words how you feel. writing freely, hoping not to offend anyone. i don't know... stress and me just don't mix well. my pride just can't take the fact that other people's ideas and scripts will be used and glorified, even if there is no initiative to start things whatsoever. they get all the credit without knowing that i, too, am a seeker of attention. my pride consumes my all, leaving me with nothing... but hatred inside. lost in time, but not even willing to find another way out.

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i submitted three works to the shades of gray...wishing that even just one of my works would be published. the issue came out a while ago. my works weren't there. am i THAT BAD a writer?

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once again, i'm drowning. i see light and try to swim up. a force pushes me back down. i don't know how to swim. i gag. i run out of breath. i see a figure. my eyes widen. my vision blurs. my last word. YOU. i die.

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got mad at him last monday (11-20-06). he disappeared when we were ordering food from the caf. we were seated already. he came up behind me with a bag of cello's pillows. "peace offering 'to.. peace na tayo..." all smiles and enjoyment. he apologized and bought cello's without doing anything wrong. it was all me. my mood swings. my inconsideration. my inattentiveness. my insensitiveness. my fault. and he was the one who said sorry.

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*conversations:

M: Can i go to...
A: No.
M: it's a friend's church concert.
A: No.
M: (silence)

M: ... and then A and B were.... then he gave me Cello's as a piece offering.
Y: who gave who?
M: he gave me.
Y: (silence)
M: (-_-) okay, change topic.

moa episode...

went to mall of asia, better known as moa these days, last weekend. and for the first time, i actually saw what has been proclaimed the second largest mall in asia. it was indeed large, but in a nice way. only went to a portion of the mall since we arrived at around 7:30pm already. and since our main purpose for going to the mall was to eat, that's exactly what we did.

having decided on a restaurant (tokyo cafe - yummy place, just like the restaus in japan), i took the liberty to go to the one place i consider heaven in that mall - the skating rink. i went alone as my family waited to be seated. :) after envying and at the same time admiring the rink and the skaters, i felt my tummy grumble and decided to go back. i checked my celphone and saw my sister calling me. as i answered, a small bald guy (as in panot na pangit) approached me.

panot: miss, pwede makipagkilala sayo?
me: (look at him, keep walking while talking with achi)
panot: (follows me) miss, pwede makipagkilala sayo?
me: (put celphone in my bag and keep walking)
-i see a crowd and blend in. i come out of the crowd.-
panot: (appears from i-don't-know-where) miss, anong oras na?
me: (keep walking... fast-paced without looking back)
-i got to the restaurant, went in, sat down, and shuddered.-

the end.

talk about freaky.

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quote to share:

"Girls love to shop. But the only thing we're shopping for is PERMISSION."
-Cathy, the comic strip

places...

on a kalesa named Piolo (touring heritage village, vigan)

fort ilocandia (laoag)

paoay church (laoag tour)

saud beach (pagudpud tour)

cape bojeador light house (pagudpud tour)

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ever memorial cemetery...

nov. 1, '06 -- ever since angkong died, we've added a semi-family reunion every year - a trip to the cemtery. this year's his 4th death year, if i'm not mistaken. the candles have changed from white to yellow to red.. and and has stayed red for the past year.

gathered around angkong's mausoleum and, once again, bonded with cousins. talked about "arranged meetings" with my cousins and some guys and their reactions with it. ate a lot too... what with the food being served. yum! :) raven stayed with us too. his lola died last year (i think)... we talked about school stuff and what we were gonna do after. it was cool since raven actually got to see and meet my whole family. hehehe :) because of chit-chatting wtih my cousins and raven underthe sun, i got a sunburn. people go to the beach to get a tan; i go to the cemtery. go figure. hahaha :)

my nephews and nieces are growing up so quickly. they're fireballs that never run out of energy. :) they're really cute and charming. hehe.. :)

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to laoag and back...

went to laoag over the past weekend (nov. 2-5). stayed at fort ilocandia. the sister of fontana, i'd say the resort is a really lovely place. it was huge and the rooms were real comfy. shobe loved the pool there and swam for three consecutive afternoons - explains the tan she's got. (",) also had the chance to ride the ATV with shobe; the motor bike like vehicle that runs in the sand. imagine a movie scene - two people having fun riding while the wind pushed our hair back. fun fun fun... then the car tips over. the dust from the sand flies up and the elder girl rushes up to find the younger one. she sees the younger one and rushes to help her up. she sees the car tipped over and gas dripping from it. she pulls the hand of the younger one and runs for her life, predicting that the car will blow. they're covered with dust and the younger one is filled with shock. - that was what happened. :) well, i didn't run for my life though.. exaggerated that part :D it is a movie scene after all (",)

vigan... ilocos sur

toured vigan with a tour guide from fort ilocandia. there was max's fried chicken! wow! :) hahaha :) there was no dunkin donuts though, only mister donut. passed through heritage village, juan luna's museum, etc. also bough vigan longganisa.. heard it was good. :) hehehe :) haven't cooked it though. ilocos sur was a more historical place.

pagudpud... ilocos norte

the name was derived from pagod na at pudpud na ang paa. :) ilocos norte is the more nature-friendly and relaxing place. :) went to the light house that sir dennis told us about. cool place. :) loved the beach we went to - saud beach. :) clean water and white sand. :)

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family reunion (nov. 11)

it was angkong's birthday. went to golden fortune to celebrate. typical family reunion... ate and talked to cousins. :) the fun part was when one of my nieces approached me and played with me. her name's jamie. the thing is, she's the "mataray" type. she never even looked at me before. and that night, she played with me. :D imagine the smile i had on my face. :) hahaha :) moreover, she hugged me. she hugged me and planted a kiss on my cheek! :) wee!!!! :) even her dad, ahia james, was surprised. :) cute little girl jamie is... hope this 4-year-old girl won't forget me anytime soon :) wonder if she'll play with me still on the next fam reunion. hope she will :)

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though to share:

"don't blame the gun, blame the hand that pulled the trigger."
-direk jon red. indie film workshop. 11 nov 06.

fun fun fun :)

tagaytay -- achi ste, achi, me, cherie, and bri :)

jed, raven, shirley, phangga, aica :)

sir john, me, mandy, hannah, and jackie :)

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duyan ng kagitingan (oct. 24-27, 2006)

the production is finally done. capoot! (uh... i dunno if i used the expression correctly or not... =P) had five shows and all went well. one show per day from tuesday to thursday and two shows on friday. the runs were pretty good. i didn't really like the run i had on wednesday though. i committed a lot of mistakes, like forgetting my lines and not showing the white hanky (which was actually a very impt. hand prop). and that was the night ahia han, buddy, erick, jimai, and casper (wow, new friend!) went to watch. oh well, so much for confidence when people you know are there to support you. :) hehehe :)

the one run wherein i really felt the audience was a big challenge was the thursday show. the audience had no reaction at all. they weren't reacting AT ALL. that's one thing that makes actors and actresses backstage nervous. the audience didn't clap or laugh or smile. we didn't hear oohs or aaahs or anything that could be heard from the audience area. no, they were dead silent. well, except for the part when i spoke chinese. they laughed. yes, that's what they did - laughed. on the other hand, the 1pm show on friday - that audience, i loved. :) they laughed and cheered and rooted for dum-arok as he killed ma'la with his last blow. :) hahaha :)

i'm pretty happy to have done the re-staging of duyan. met new friends, dealt with new problems, learned a few ins and outs in theater life, got to know old friends better, and learned a bit more of sign language... thanks to sir john :) won't forget the dancers from ballet philippines we worked with - jomer, lora, jonah, andro, camille, alvin, karmela, and vince. plus got the chance to work with bryce and aica. :) cool people. new friends. an everlasting friendship. :) also, got to hold the hand of my crush! waaaaaaah! :) hahahaha :)

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theft...

was on my way home one night. was with my dad in the car. there was a truck in front of us. a kid ran to it and tried to open the back of the truck. the metal doors were locked and didn't budge. so the kid opened a small rectangle door also at the back of the truck. i myself didn't know there was an opening there until i saw what the kid did. he got a metal thing out of that opening and ran without closing the opening. he looked back but ran as fast as he could. and the truck driver didn't know a thing. tsk tsk tsk. talk about philippines being related to poverty and theft.

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went to tagaytay with my cousins (oct. 27-29, 2006)

che, brian, and achi went to csb to fetch me after my last show of duyan ng kagitingan. ate at chicken chicken. we went to makati to fetch achi ste, who just got off work. then, we left manila. :) reached tagaytay at around 10 something. chit-chatted with cousins then we all went to bed. next morning, we got up and had brunch at leslie's. met my cousin's boyfriend.. lau. :) that night, we cooked mashed potatoes, pesto spaghetti, custard, and japanese pancake. yum! :) hehehe :) it was cool. we also watched veronica mars non-stop! i love that show... really. :) hahaha :) even my cousins got addicted to it! see the influence we have?! gosh! :) hahaha :) last day we were there, we went to eat at bag of beans. cool place they have. yummy pies too! :) hee hee :)

been a while since i've bonded with my cousins. it felt nice and warm. we could understand one another, being in the same situation and sometimes having the same problems. hehehe :) nice to have someone to talk to. looking forward to the next cousin bonding session we'll be having :)

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had our fotogra midterm exam yesterday. it was a 15 item mind boggling exam. don't know what score i got but i hope i pass. hehe :)

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just a funny scene from veronica mars:

EXT. NEPTUNE HIGH SCHOOL PARKING LOT. DAY.

VMARS IS WAITING FOR LOGAN IN THE PARKING LOT. LOGAN NEARS.

logan: i'm really getting used to seeing a hot blonde waiting for me every morning before school starts.
vmars: i'm getting used to it too.
logan: but i'm not blonde.
vmars: or hot!

gets? hee hee :) okei... i know i know... i'd be better off with my mouth shut. but hey, it doesn't hurt to share :D

recap...

*henna by hannah. ba'e laiya.



i rode on the silver LRT train, the one that had a broken airconditioner. there was a girl who stood in front of me. we exchanged smiles and faces that expressed "it's so hot!" then she got her copy of the new free newspaper that's given in LRT stations and handed a leaf of it to me. she smiled and said, "ito oh. ang init eh." really, there still are angels here on earth. :)

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set up for duyan ng kagitingan took place on saturday and sunday (oct 21 and 22, '06). i climbed the scaffolds to set up the lights and mics. it was scary but fun. TIRING too. :) hehehe :)

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first show of duyan was yesterday (oct 23). the run was all right, considering that we didn't have a decent dress tech rehearsal before the show. it was obvious most of us were nervous. hehe :) hope the succeeding runs would be become better and better ("_)

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there was an old lady (teacher from cksc) who stressed me out from 12 something to 130pm. she told me that she thinks our play is ugly (even though she hasn't seen it yet and she threw the tickets we were selling! ugh!). other than that, she told me that i should've taken up ACCOUNTING! (i'm not interested in math, thank you very much for asking.) and she sermoned me about love. she told me not to get married since SHE considered men to be pigheads who just want money (wtf?!). really, she actually told me that there were many guys who courted her! (what happened to eye glasses and contact lens?!) sheesh! i'm getting more evil by the minute. it's just weird that she barged into my life for that short span and managed to sermon me for around 30 minutes. wow. may God never let me meet her again.

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i have a new crush! waaaaa!!! he's so cute! :) hee hee... my co-actor in our play. watch our play if you wanna know who.. (hahaha... nang-intriga!) :) he's just plain cute. hee hee :) kinikilig ako! :D

but really.. duyan ng kagitingan. oct 25-27. 5pm. there's a 1pm show on oct. 27. csb theater. 150php.

interesting...

*rugin scared, robbie dressed as angel of death*

*me and hannah (1st year college)*


what has happened:

- i've had a steaming conversation with one of the personnel in the GAS/reservations office.

our group needed the list of available facilities and equipment for the theater. we also needed the plans of the theater (floor plans, elevation plans, etc.). we wrote a letter and spent almost 2 weeks waiting for a reply. only the floor plan was given. sux.. so when i went to the office to inquire for the list of available facilities, a guy asked me what i needed. i told him that i needed the list. then started the steaming conversation - he questioned my course, my abilities, and worse of all, my knowledge. i felt insulted. take note: i had not yet eaten anything that day and my head was hurting from our fotogra class which took place beneath the hot sun. what i would give to see someone strangle that man's neck.

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- i've fought with two of my professors. well, they scolded us.

namely sir jay and miss alfon. it was our fault, actually. something to do with our class requirement and not giving the complete-complete presentation. considering that we were already juniors, well, we were grilled alive. that was sir jay's class. unfortunately, he told ms alfon... who in turn, scolded us more during our rehearsals for duyan. talk about the domino effect. i admit that i felt bad the day and the few days after they scolded us... who wouldn't?... esp. since we climbed the theater catwalk and scaffloding to get the measurements and all.

well, talked to them. things seem to be all right now. but then again, i don't wanna assume.

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- we went to the theater to gather measurements and observations and dealt with ghosts.

yes, the CSB theater is indeed haunted! waaa! i'm seriously not making this up. migs, rug, and i were at the tech booth of the theater. migs was sitting on a table and was hitting his foot on it; thus, the sound *thud thud thud* the thing was migs was at the far left side of the booth when rug and i were at the far right. rug and i both heard a *thud* coming from our side of the room. all of us looked at one another and migs said, "ako lang yun. tignan niyo ah." he stopped hitting his foot on the table. BUT the *thud* still continued. creeeepy... and yes, we ran downstairs. hahahahaha :)

we had to climb the catwalk to get the measurements. the catwalk is the top of the acting area, a very dark place. i was on the catwalk, rug was on the ladder, and hannah was on the stage. i heard clicking noises. i knew it was coming from somewhere near me, but didn't dare say anything. soon enough, i asked hannah, "han, may naririnig ba kayong click na sound? parang yung switch sa ilaw?" hannah paused and said, "ganyan ba?" she twisted the cap on her ball pen and yes, it was the same sound. so, i was relieved. a second later, i heard the clicking sound again and looked at hannah. she was looking at me and she wasn't twisting her ball pen. yikes! i said, "hindi ikaw yun eh." hannah just said, "may iba." hahaha :) ooookay!! na-jabar kaming lahat!!!!! hahahaha :)

catwalk again... it was creepy 'cause i could hear the "woooooo" sounds there. i'm not joking. it really sounded like spirits wooo-ing. creepy. good thing my group mates were there with me. yikes be-dikes! hehehe :)

the theater experience was creepy but fun. esp. when you're with hannah... she has a gift. YIKES! hahaha :)

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- i was home alone during the weekend.

my family went to china and i was left home alone. hahaha :) it was an inauguration of my late grandfather's project so the family was asked to go. i was supposed to have class on friday and saturday... so i chose not to go. the saturday class is a class i don't want to miss. unfortunately, those classes did not push through. the profs were absent. ugh! but had rehearsals, so my weekend wasn't put to waste at all. hehehe :)

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- saw someone get hurt on the LRT

rode the LRT to school. heard a *thud*. everyone was craning their necks for a better look at what happened. i didn't get to see. soon, a guy was announcing for another guy, "....., hinahanap po kayo ng kasama niyo. punta nalang po kayo sa harapan ng tren." it was later on that i saw an old lady with a cloth on her head. she was bleeding. i guess she tripped on her way up the train and hit her head. hope she's doing all right now...

last week's agenda

*geneve, sophie, jack, me, and michie*


last tuesday's (09-19-06) experience...

went to the supermarket to run some errands... and yes, i was alone... was waiting for achi since her class just ended and the car went to admu to fetch her. so there, i was breezing through the aisles with my grocery list when a tall guy and his sister's (i assume) cart blocked my way. they pulled back and let me pass. inheriting the filipino attritube of being polite, i smiled and said thanks. weird thing was his sister was making the typical "yiii...." teases. go figure. i didn't mind them and went to the next aisle. that's when the sister ran up to me, celphone in hand, and asked, "ate, pwede po bang makuha number niyo?" when i looked behind, i saw the guy hiding behind the shelves... oookaaaay.... i don't wanna be mean, but the guy was... uh.... he looked... uh.... you get the point.

just so you know, i didn't give them my number. i was flattered, yeah.. but no way was i gonna give someone completely unknown to me my number. hee hee :D well, that was one heck of an experience. :)

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i just go on the LRT when the buzzer sounded. the doors were about to close. there was an old lady waving her hands, asking the conductor not to close the doors yet. she wanted to get on the train. the doors closed. but opened again when a guy in a blue barong (part of the LRT personnel, i think) asked the conductor to wait. the guy in blue barong went to the lola and helped her to her seat. it gave me a sense of pride to know that there are still people like the guy in the blue barong here in the philippines.

and it made me think of the other countries. in japan, the vehicles arrived and departed on time. they gave no exceptions. same in hongkong and the states. what if the same situation had happened there? an old lady wanting to get on the train but having difficulties walking. it was obvious that she was trying her best to walk faster. would the trains abroad wait for the lola to get on? or would they go on with their timed schedules? or maybe they'd ask the lola to wait for the next train, knowing that it wasn't that far away? i don't know. the situation just got me thinking. but i was proud to have witnessed that moment. i don't know if anyone else in that train saw what happened. i'm just glad i did. :D

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thursday (09-21-06)

went to u.p. diliman to witness one of my friend's shining moments. the film in which sophie starred in was one of the six 20-minute films that were under takilyang peyups. she acted as the main character of the film "now hiring." as i was watching the film showing at the aldaba hall, i felt proud of my beshie. we've known each other ever since elementary and she's been one of my best friends since then. it was nice to see her on screen and do her thing. it just felt great that she invited me to watch her film screening. she really has become a star in her own way. :) plus, met some of her friends... they were just like her - makulit, charming, funny, and cool to be with. no wonder sophie gets along with them. :) once again, kudos to sophie... for making her break as an actress :) she deserves every compliment said and the admiration given, esp. with the work she put in. i can't help but think how much she has matured - from her looks (she's become prettier now, esp. with her rosy cheeks and new hairstyle) to her way of talking. a lot has changed since she entered u.p., but i know that she'll forever be the beshie i know and shared stories with back in elementary and high school. :)

the six films were:

1. deadline - a group of friends are pressured with the deadline of their project that is due in a few days. they gather in the condo of raymond to work, but at the same time a famous actress is murdered in the same building they're staying in. they soon find stuff in the condo that aren't supposed to be there and happenings that aren't supposed to take place. is the murder connected to one of the group members? or is it just coincidence? will they get to finish their project on time? are they up to what's going to happen as they rush themselves to reach their deadline?

2. you had me at hello - a musical that involves the lives of five people who are working as call center agents. the story revolves around how the strong the bond is with these five friends when problems arise.

3. edi po... - a story about a mama's boy who is obsessed with his newfound experience - intercourse with a certain someone. he finds it hard to concentrate with his studies and finds malice in words his friends say. at the same time, he deals with the hurt and hatred he feels toward his father. he remembers what his father said, "bantayan mo nanay mo ah. alagaan mo siya." and he has kept his promise ever since. dealing a lot with emotions, this film's title was derived from oedipus. you get the point?

4. abot tanaw - typical love story. a guy who falls in love with the girl his fiancee hates. it happened when the fiancee locked the girl in the trunk of her car. so happens that they guy used the fiancee's car and found the girl inside. their story blooms from there. the funny thing about this film is that they used a lot of cliches and the famous one-liners from different movies. comedic in its own way, you'd find yourself in a mix of emotions - sorrow, happiness, laughter, etc.

5. now hiring - zai just turned twenty and her parents give her a gift - resumes of legitimate guys she can call her boyfriend. bewidered with what her parents did, she meets ton and hires him to be her boyfriend. ton is a middle classed person and finds it hard to match zai's upper class upbringing. will ton and zai figure a way to work things out? will love really conquer all? a fun romantic comedy, this film will bring tears and laughter to the audience.

6. quiet dinners - a photographer is taking photos of a company and so happens the manager of the company was in one of them. the photographer's boss likes what he sees and asks the photographer to take pics of the company with the manager in it. the manager, a girl, seems the intimidating type and snobs the photographer off. how will the photographer get snapshots of the girl, which he falls in love with in the end? how will he get her attention and get her to agree? and the most challenging of all, how will the photographer get to talk to the girl with him being deaf mute?

pictures and plays

*jax, me, hana, and joey - models kuno during rox's fotogra class last term*

yesterday (09-18-06) -- i got to see the first batch of pictures i had taken with a NIKON FM3 camera... :) first time to actually see my output with a manual SLR... believe it or not, i tore the film the first time i used an SLR camera... hee hee... :D i was supposed to rewind the film, problem was i forgot to press the rewind/release button beneath the SLR camera... so, there... i tore the film.

anyway, though some pictures were, ummm, weird and blurred, i'm proud to say that there were a few shots i really liked :P hehehe :) there was this one particular shot that hannah kept laughing at.. :) it was a shot with arnie, hannah, and rug aiming their cameras at a flower; they were just standing in different angles. i would've liked the shot if it weren't that blurred... hehe :) hannah kept laughing, saying that i focused on the leaves that were on the extreme right side of the picture and everything else in the picture was blurred... :) hee hee :P

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watched two plays last weekend... shock value and godot, wer is u? both plays were quite nice.. :)

shock value was staged in U.P. Wilfrido-Guerrero Theater. it was about life behind the cameras, behind the scenes. how a successful producer dealt with the issues when he was caught red-handed as he was having sex with a TV host. it showed the things actors and actresses would do and sacrifice for their careers. it was a comedy... fun, intriguing, and eye-catching. the production was brought out in a variety show kind of way. full of dances like our afternoon ASAP or SOP shows. :) there was also a chika portion, mocking the chika-minute program or the fact that CHIKA was actually put along the stream of serious news reportings. imagine this: mount mayon is on the verge of errupting and the village people near there are asked to evacuate the location. // isang boldstar, virgin pa daw?! ... you get what i mean? ironically, people actually wanna know more about the boldstar issue than that of mayon. weird.

godot, wer is u? with this play, you have to have the ear and the patience to listen. staged at the ccp-tanghalang huseng batute, this play was all-talk. based from a script/novel by samuel beckett, there were two people who did everything and talked about anything they could think of while waiting for godot. personally, i'd think godot was meant to represent death in the production. i liked this production for the fact that it dealt with a lot of symbolisms and poetry. "hinihintay natin si godot!" was repeated in a singsong manner that it got stuck to my head after the play. :) one of the one-liners i really loved was the one said by potsu: waaa! bulag na ako... nung nagising ako kanina, mas blind pa ako sa love!" :D hee hee hee :) it was a comedy... but as i've said, you have to listen to the dialogue to enjoy the whole thing. for me, i didn't notice it... but the time i really appreciated the production was when i was analyzing about it. it's simply beautiful... a lot of hidden meanings, symbolisms, poetic verses, etc. simply put, it was WOW. :) hehehe :)

week... :)

*an ambigram from hannah's cap :)*


i had my fifth and last driving lesson today... drove up to commonwealth, quezon circle, quezon avenue, and EDSA already... was pretty cool :) hehehe :) kuya terry was all smiles and i praise him for his patience when it comes to dealing with my impeccable style of driving :) hahahaha :)

first day of driving... i drove from malabon to dagat dagatan to navotas... and believe it or not, i passed an accident... yes, there was a dead body involved. didn't get to see the accident scene since kuya terry blocked my view and told me to keep my eyes on the road. i only had a glimpse of a broken bicycle; it was later on that i found out that it was an accident between the said bicycle and a motorcycle. love, our helper who was seated at the backseat, gave me the details as we walked home from the school. there was a pool of blood and the man was dead with a capital D.

the succeeding days went by swiftly... i learned how to do a 3 point turn and a 2 point turn... plus, i was taught how to parallel park though i still haven't gotten the hang of it... hehe :) it was my third day that i was allowed to drive to EDSA... cool.... hahaha :)

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watched monster house with shobe last saturday... :) cute story and plot... though a kiddie movie, i have to admit that there were some parts that kept me on my toes :) hee hee... it was pretty cool to see an animated horror movie... :) having the horror genre, it attracted people of all ages... :) and, of course, the animation was even more splendid since i had my white cheddar chimara popcorn and iced tea with me :) hahaha :) yum!

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my tummy hurt again yesterday... after how many months of watching what i eat, my tummy betrayed me. partly my fault since i was a glutton for iced tea for the past week... plus the fact that the booth of NYFD entered the campus ground. who could resist the lure of fries???? but everything went well again as soon as i got home... least my tummy didn't hurt as much as it did when i was still in high school... hehehe :) thank God for that. oh well, better watch the food i eat once again. but nothing's gonna keep me away from New York Fries and Nacho King and Sno Cones and the Belgian Chocolate stalls that are set up inside the campus until next friday. *drooling* hahaha :)

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need to heighten things up as a literary staffer... the number of write-ups i need to edit keep on accumulating each day... the number has already reached a minimum of 135 write-ups... hahaha :) good luck to me! :) hahaha :)

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boy: d na matutuloy kasal natin.
girl: bakit?!
boy: dad mo kasi...
girl: hindi noh! gusto ka naman ng dad ko eh.

boy: yun nga eh...... gusto ko rin siya.....

duyan ng kagitingan

musang (aica), inag-tala (hana), ba'e diw-ata (phangga)

ilang (rugin) and handmaiden2/ba'e laiya (me)

duyan ng kagitingan is finally in the bag. :) a term of hardships, rehearsals, pressure, and patience has finally paid off. we staged the production on august 24 (6pm) and 25 (8pm). :) there are no words to explain how happy and honored i am to actually be part of the production. :) everything was so action packed - from the prologue to the epilogue of the play. :) the audience were always on the lookout for the fight scenes. :) no words can explain the beauty of our costumes, make-up, and of course, the lights. :) everything just meshed so well... :) it was, in a weird way, perfect in its own imperfection. :) did i just make any sense? :) hahaha :)

of course there were times we stumbled over our lines, had mental black, and made mistakes with our blockings... but it is nonetheless one of the greatest plays ever staged :) then again, i'm biased :) hahaha :)
it was also nice to see friends and family gather around to watch our production. :) we had a "full house" on the 24th and nothing would explain the nervousness yet excitement and happiness we all felt inside :) then came the open forum.. our play was part of ccp's "waiting in the wings" program... a lot of people commented on our play - from the fight scenes to the arnis usage to the indigenous filipino plot :)
in short, i just really feel fulfilled. :) plus the fact that most, if not all, of us who stood hand-in-hand to make this production possible were students of the De La Salle- College of Saint Benilde :)

it was really cool working with people from different year levels and courses... we all had our own areas of expertise but like magic, we all hit it off quite well :)
another production accomplished. :) hopefully, many more to come :)

prayer...

first things first, it's officially shirley's birthday today!!! so.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SHERLOTZ!!! :) well, i was the second one to greet her... my record has been broken... shucks.. hahaha :) happy, happy birthday to my twinie :) one of the best, best friends i have... love her a lot :)

hmm... went to the chapel a while ago... :) a start.. i know... haha :) it was really nice actually... the ambience, the fragrant smell, the lighting, the guy playing his guitar at the back as he sang a few lines from a christian song. :) it was my definition of a perfect scenery. i felt so relaxed, so at home, so light. it was really, really, really nice :) want to do it again sometime soon... :) plus, the company... :) hehehe :P

he asked me, "if there's one thing you would ask God for, what would it be?"
i looked him in the eyes and smiled. i closed my eyes and prayed. i felt him bow his head down too as he closed his eyes in a silent prayer.
i opened my eyes. i smiled. i looked at him and said, "tara, hannah's waiting outside."
he agreed.
i told joey and martian we'd head outside first. they smiled and said they'd follow.

when we were outside, he and hannah told me some bible stories, thanks to the macquettes displayed outside the chapel... haha :)
i was impressed. :)
with my situation right now, i asked God for two things a while ago: open minds and freedom. God knows what's best for me.


he looked at me and smiled... if there was one thing you would ask God for, what would it be?

i smiled back.

i needn't tell him what i would ask for.

my that one prayer had already been answered. ;)

decision

damn.

my life is full of shit right now. worthless. unfair. prejudiced. controlled. i'm stuck in the middle. don't know where to go. i'm stuck.

hell broke loose. i'm drowning. no way out. i'm drowning. i'm helpless. i'm hopeless. no other way. i'm drowning.

i'm a coward.

no one understands. no one... damn it.

can't live like this anymore. just can't.

more than friends, less than lovers. for me, that's final. take it from me. i said that. it's what i want. my decision.

shit. i AM a coward. hypocrite. freak. coward.

people do become their hatest enemies. i'm becoming my own worst nightmare. double shit.

damn.

so help me God.

and help him understand. i can't do this anymore.

more than friends, less than lovers. that's my deal. take it or leave it.

damn.

courage. will. justice. freedom. choice. all gone. one remains. fear.

i am who i am. this is who i am. this is my life.

coward.

damn.

17 days to go...

picture: (from left) rugin, hannah, arnie, me, jackie, kuya andrew, and sir paul at the center :)

we have roughly 17 days to go before our play at ccp... :) 17 days to practice/rehearse and have arnis training... yikes! :) kinda exciting and scary at the same time... it's gonna be real fun since we're the ones who're gonna act and set up the place (lights!!! yay!) but scary too since we are kind of under rehearsed still... hehe :) but nonetheless, i'm sure it's gonna be one worthwhile experience. :)

hope a lot of people will get the chance to watch this production of ours. it's an original script written by nathan mazo and translated by nikki torres :) script was developed by our director miss alfon :) dance numbers are choreographed by arnie umayam and our fight scenes are choreographed by sir paul :)

"duyan ng kagitingan" showing dates are august 24 and 25. both 8pm at the tanghalang huseng batute. :)

17 days left.... gosh... :) at least 17 more days of 6-9 rehearsals... hahaha :) plus the workload we have for our other subjects!!! waaaah!!!! :) thus the saying, it's tiring but it's fun :)

cool quiz

ok, i am at the yearbook office. and it's raining cats and dogs outside. hmp. it's 8:47am, have been in school ever since 7:30am. damn. hahaha :)

You scored as Theater.

You should be a Theater major! Like a bohemian actress, you are seasoned and confident and not afraid to express yourself!


Theater - 100%
Journalism - 92%
Dance - 75%
English - 75%
Linguistics - 75%
Sociology - 75%
Art - 75%
Philosophy - 58%
Psychology - 58%
Biology - 42%
Anthropology - 33%
Engineering - 33%
Mathematics - 25%
Chemistry - 17%

this is a cool quiz/survey/whatever you wanna call it. :) got it from sharleen's page. hahaha :) this kind of boosted up my view on my course, if it's really for me or not. :) cooL.... hahaha :)

What is your Perfect Major?
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more than friends, less than lovers

such a good man. caring. understanding. sweet. cute. charming. funny. witty. honest. no pretentions. gentleman. everything a girl could ask for...

he'd text me every morning till night. even if i fall asleep without replying (which i often do so)...
he'd walk me to the lrt. even if 5 minutes was left before his class starts.
he'd hug me. and hug me. and hug me some more.
he'd call my celphone and talk for 30 minutes about stalkers and flowers.
he'd give me a stuffed toy so that i won't forget him when he goes to singapore (his future workplace).
he'd text me that he misses me when he was in singapore.
he'd put a smile on my face just by being himself.
he'd tell jokes, even if they were corny.
he'd dance around. and twirl me around. as if we knew how to dance.
he'd tell me that my punches can't hurt him because he's macho.
he'd accompany me until my dad came to fetch me.
he'd tell me different stories, starting off our conversations.
he'd tell me encouraging words when i'm in a down mood.
he'd hold my hand and never let go.
he'd get to know my friends and my school mommy better.
he'd promise to bring me to punta fuego and atc.
he'd ask me where i was and run to find me.
he'd text me and say that he's hoping he can see me before his class.
he'd be there for me.
he'd tell me that he loves me in bisaya.
he'd ask for just one chance while others asked for second chances.

he'd be the reason why i look forward to school everyday.
he'd make me laugh and smile and make my day brighter.

call me stupid. a coward. someone who can't fight for herself.

but the thing is, be it i like/love him or not, i'm just not strong enough to do what i can do... and that is fight for him. i'm tired of what is happening. i don't wanna face days that feel this bad anymore. i can't bring myself to do it. i admit that i'm a coward in my own way.

life is full of i-don't-knows. that's what he said. we don't know what the future has in store for us. the future's always a mystery.

but in this case, present tell the future for me. i can't disobey them. i don't have the strength to do so. i'm weak....

i don't know what's going to happen. no one knows. as he said, life is full of i-don't-knows.

i told my friend once, "the girl he's gonna like is gonna become real lucky." just so happens i did become that lucky girl. i was lucky to have him in my life. but luck just didn't agree with me.

as the saying goes, "most good things must come to an end." bull crap. but yet again, i don't know.

never did i think that i'd utter these words.

more than friends, less than lovers.

realization..

i had the chance to talk to my parents yesterday... and i really felt guilty... for saying a lot of things... for thinking that they were against me all along... that i was just being treated as the black sheep in the family...

i was wrong. i felt their fear. i felt their worry. i felt their want to make the right decisions.

i had the chance to really talk to my parents and i felt their parental love and guidance. they want the best for me. that sums up everything. they want me to be happy and have a beautiful life. nothing in this world would make them happier than to see their daughters successful and happy. :) being parents, it's a given that there are certain things they worry about. i'll repeat again... they want the best for me. :)

i guess i'll never fully grasp the concept of 'worrying' as a parent. that's something that i'll come to learn when my turn comes to become a parent. which is like two decades away. hehe :)

i apologize for all the blabbing things i said about mom and dad. i guess now i've realized how hard it is to become a parent, esp. if the kid's someone like me. hehehe :) i know that there are times that they commit mistakes and there are times that they find it hard to tell us to reconsider some of our decisions. but they've done a pretty good job as my parents. and i'm proud of them. i love them so much. :) no one job can be equal to the hardships and patience a parent needs to have. :)

i love my mom and dad so much. :)

so, whoever's reading my entry, do give your parents a pat on the back, a kiss, and a hug. :) they're truly the stars that shine amongst the darkness. :)

freaking day.

putang ina talaga. this day is just so full of shit. should i go over every fucking detail of my miserable life? nah, don't think so.i'll just cut to the chase. okay. i'm in u.p. and about to watch a play. met up with sophie.. haven't seen my beshie for a while now;i guess that was the nicest thing that happened to me today. so after the play, we get ready to leave.

no one was going to pass by sm north edsa and i, being the nonchalant and dumb person that i am, did not have an inkling as to how i was going to get my ass back home. see? nonchalant, dumb, ignorant girl = me. so lesson learned: if you hate my guts, leave me in the middle of nowhere and i'll be dragging my sorry ass up to you.
anyway, i was fortunate enough to have ms. alfon, joey, rox, camille, etc. to save me from being lost and took me with them to eat. we went to sweet intentions first but decided for cantjinas in the end. oh yes, i reached katipunan, the restaurant just in front of admu. yes, that's the one. others had beer and nachos, joey and rox settled for burritos and water (i think). so i was there. didn't order anything because my cel kept on ringing. you know the feeling that you want people to just leave you alone? you know they care for you and all but you just want to be left alone. damn. some don't understand that concept. so ring ring ring non-stop for my phone. and guess what, a hello would be nice for someone on the other line. but no, shouting was the award winning action that had to take place. so yes, i was literally bugged and shouted at for about 20 minutes. i honestly didn't know how to go hone so joey offered that we ride the tric to the katipunan station and that's when we would go our separate ways. or rox would be able to commute with me by jeep and bus until monumento. so yay, problem solved. or so i wished. no, my cel just had to keep ringing. and take note, i was having the why-all-of-times-my-cel-chose-now case of low battery. anyway, i couldn't dodge the calls. i answered and was told that i had better get my ass to where i was wanted. so instead of having one person to accompany me to wherever destination, i had my none. not bad for a first-timer.

really. my life is just so shitty recently. it is just so shitty. really, my life does not deserve a better term than "shitty." god, i am sopathetic. but then, that makes my life even more shitty. whatever.

the whole "it's for your own good." i respect it. but damn, i just wish i had a little freedom, a little TRUST. damn trust issues. i amalways surrounded by them. damn.

and my situation right, my thoughts about him and what could and SHOULD be ain't making things any easier. damn it.

just like the rumbling photo. my life has no steady or stable thing right now.

ain't easy to live my fucking life.

meet mocha

meet mocha. cute, charming, and cuddly. :) given to me by someone who thinks i'll forget him when he goes to singapore. gosh, how right.. i need a stuffed toy to remind me that someone like him exists in this world. hmp. :) that's where he's wrong. :)
was supposed to name mocha after he who gave mocha to me but decided against it. if i did that, i'd have no nickname for him anymore. hahaha :) so, i gave vanilla (hannah's teddy) a counterpart. taa-daa... meet mocha :) cute, cute, cute. soft. cuddly. petite. lovable. huggable. kissable. did i mention cute? :) hahaha :)
"i chose him out of a zoo of animals shouting 'pick me!' and i told him to take care of you while i'm gone." so sweet. hehe :) i'd be a hypocrite if i said i wasn't expecting anything from him (he told me that he had a 'grand master plan!'), but actually seeing him get the blue magic bag out of his bag and giving it to me was different. it felt nice. hehehe :) ever since this term started, i've seen a different him. weird how i'd come to like him. most friends tell me that they expected it and stuff like that but i honestly didn't expect that i'd like him.

having said that now, there's THE problem i have to face once again. i don't know what'll happen tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. he told me that everything'll be all right as long as we're happy with each other. but is it true? i always question myself. will i be able to return everything he's giving me? will i be able to describe him as 'someone i love?' will i be able to be free with him? will the feeling of fear ever leave me? will i be able to feel what i want with him with people judging our every action? will i? questions that will never have positive answers.
i've asked hannah and rugin once about everything, about my feelings. yes, i'm really confused with how i feel right now. they just told me that i'd never be able to assert how i feel and feel the freedom of being loved and loved by this certain someone because of traditions. the ever-so-famous traditions that i never seem to get tired of trying to break. but of course, i always lose.

mood : bad trip. why? don't ask me.

fell asleep with my lighdes notes on my side at around 12 something last night. woke up at 4 and studied again. haha. went back to sleep after an hour. had to wake up at 5:50 and go to uno with shobe. ate breakfast with parents. went to csb. went to find hana. got together with rugen, arnie, hana, and jc at the cafeteria and reviewed for our lighdes midterm exam. passed the exam. whew!

after lighdes, had arnis training with sir paul. learned a lot of new stuff. cool training. hehe :) loved the synchronization of the drum beats and the arnis sticks hitting one another. :) so better watch out for duyan ng kagitingan!
practice ended at around 5:30pm. changed clothes. went to lrc ext. and found neppy, byron,nora, and teddy. rugen and hana went to rugen's condo to take a quick shower. teddy went with me to the caf to grab a bite. ate my favorite snack in country style, tiger pawz. yum! hehe :) went to worlite class. 6-9... my goodness.... had a poem comprehension exam. i didn't finish it. wished she just made us write whatever we understood. but she asked questions and we had to answer them. ugh!

last but not the least, i had to come home. yes, and be scolded. potna naman eh! if i talk about my day, they cut me short. they don't really listen. sabagay, who would listen to someone who's blabbing about her day sa araw araw na ginawa ng diyos? and if i don't talk, she thinks i'm in a foul mood, which results to THE scolding. i dunno. i'm not happy. it's hard. i really don't understand myself at times.

my life's a bitch. potna talaga.

midterms...

i should be studying right now. midterm week = cram week = hell week = super stress = low batt everyday.

went online right now to check for new updates on our upcoming production :) hehehe :) yes, our ojt1 is to help nathan out with this thesis, a play. duyan ng kagitingan. and i'm playing the role of ba'e la-iya :) hehehe :) i'm gonna speak mandarin! while the rest speak old tagalog. yay! :) so i'm gonna be in my own world :) hahaha :) but take note! i have an interpreter! o db? sosyal! san ka pa?! :) hahaha :)

saw this link sent by sheryl go. it's really nice. :) hehe. just wanted to share it with whoever's reading my blog. hehe :) http://www.paete.org/parentswish/site01/big.html :)

sacrifice is the key word to my being. and it sucks.

i should've gone to the byo to help out. wondering how jane is coping up there, what with the eb in the bidding thing. and even if i wanted to go, i didn't have a way. so there.... bugger.

it still keeps on bothering me. the concept of familiarity (www.tabulas.com/~weirdlycute). it was fun at first. having and knowing other people who are experiencing the same situation as you. exchanging notes/experiences with them and finding out at that you're two peas in a pod. you see everything in this bright light and that your future's perfect.

but the feeling doesn't last long. something i discovered along the way to my 'perfect future.' i can honestly say that my life is, in need for a better word, crap. i used to agree with the others that we should be with our own race. it's what's best for us. same traditions. same culture. same bloodline. same shit. but, is it what i really want? liking someone outside our race gave me the answer. hell, no.

you'd have to kill me first before i ever go back to the someone-filipino-courted-me situation. that time, my life was totally shitty. i had no liberty of doing anything. my every move was being watched. i may be exaggerating a little, but you get the point. going home was the most tiring thing i did back then. facing reality was the hardest thing to deal with.

i've put myself in their shoes at times and yes, i find it hard to decide. i've heard others say that they too would stick to the rules. rules... as if there's a book that states hundreds and thousands of do's and dont's.

you like someone. but you can't have him. or yet, you stop yourself from even liking him. why? because of others. you're scared of getting hurt, not from him, but from others.

imagining the 'perfect life' in the future. pure. clean. able. and everyone's happy. you're happy as well, but not as happy as you could've been with that someone from the past. a past you couldn't grasp. couldn't hold on to.
what should be always wins over what could be. and that sucks.

someone once told me to say what i wanted to say and not what others want me to say. society dictates what a person should be. what i say is 'no.' which results to where i am now. pondering. wishing. thinking. faced with a new ordeal.

don't get the wrong idea. i love my life and i love being me. some people may get how i feel and some people will think that i'm just a crazy bitch, condradicting everything i've said. if you get the saying that with great power (bloodline/tradition) comes great responsibility. then you most certainly will understand that in my case, sacrifice is the key word to my being. and i don't like it; not even a bit.

the lake house. shifting entries. random words.

the lake house. nice movie. chick flick. alvin hated it. hahaha :) but i loved it.

anyway, i'm still in between blogs right now. i'm trying to see which blog is easier to use (blogspot or tabulas) hehe :) i've some entries in tabulas if you're really bored to death and want to read my entries :) hehehe :)

www.tabulas.com/~weirdlycute

plus, if you want to read some of my poems, please feel free to go to http://www.weirdly_cute.blogspot.com. :)

ojt 1 ongoing. having rehearsals and arnis lessons already. preparing for a production to be shown on august. "duyan ng kagitingan" or "hero's cradle" written by nathan mazo and translated by nikki torres. nice script. exciting production. can't wait. hehe :)

other than the production, byo's work is piling up too. not having an editor doesn't help us out at all. i know our editor's busy with his work and all, but it's kind of unfair to us literary staffers. he has his reasons.

the office seems distant nowadays. maybe not to all, but to me. GA's all start and end in silence. a parade of gloomy faces. what was the phrase one of the byo people used? ah yes, "slave driver." but whatever happens, i'm just a staffer. got to follow the rules.

down in the dumps lately. don't know if it's because i don't love my role in the production (yet), the untouched load pinned on my corkboard in the office or 'just because.'

life. hurt. anger. pain. agony. tragedy. hope.

darkness. gloom. sadness. rumble. clouds. gray. glimmer. ray. brightness.

just random words.

wandering days...

just read a few people's blogs a while ago... :) had the same experience as one of my friends... didn't expect greenbelt to be strict about the age limit for the da vinci code... was actually surprised when i was about to enter the movie house with achi... the girl actually blocked my way and asked me how old i was? :) hahahaha :) as in! when i told her i was 18, she even asked me what year and what month i was born? what the?! :) well, i guess i should take that as a compliment... :P that means i ain't looking that old yet :) hahaha :)

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watched a couple of movies already for the past few weeks... watched with achi since she still had free time :) the da vinci code, xmen 3, over the hedge, cars, and inside man :) yes, we watched all those in a span of two to three weeks. wow... hahaha :) it was pretty fun.. movie marathon :P i really liked cars... tom mater and doc hudson are the best! :) and how can i ever forget to mention guido and filmore? hehehe :) love pixar's works... real cute.. plus, loved the storyline... quite touching :)

inside man, on the other and, kept me on my toes :) not sure if i should put it under the thriller/suspense genre or something else :) hehehe :) but it had a cool plot.. and it definitely was the PERFECT robbery :)

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well, i guess i'm pretty much summing up what happened the past few weeks of my life :) hmm... it wasn't that exciting actually... :) getting ready for our arnis lessons this coming monday.. we need the lessons for an upcoming production :) part of our ojt requirements... really cool... :)

we had our first production meeting last thursday (06-15-06). sat down with ms. alfon and her freshly bakes cookies and yummy spaghetti, the ojt class, nathan, and some new faces and names... i dunno... i felt that it was the lambanog prod meeting all over again... :) though i wasn't THAT involved in the discussion (i mean, they were talking about the sound design and stuff), it felt pretty good to be part of the meeting :) and i couldn't erase the thought that this was going to be my life. this was my world; my life once i graduate. and i couldn't help but feel, i dunno, sad and happy at the same time.

yes, i'm still pretty much confused with what i really want in life. i mean, will i pursue film or stick with theater, go to tv or advertising or settle down for office work? i don't know. my life is really a mess right now, obviously... well, i'll just hope for the best.

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LA... universal studios.... miss it..

first week of classes has come and gone. met most of my professors; they seem cool. same classmates and friends, except for my world literature class. i'm not accustomed to the normal 40 students in a class anymore, so still have to sort-of adjust for my 6-9 worlite class.

weird would be the perfect word to explain "me" these past few days. guess i'm still hungover summer, and of course, my trip to the states.

i loved it in LA, esp. universal studios. i swear that if there wasn't a law against it, i would stay there for the rest of my life. it was literally heaven on earth - the sets of movies were there; the rooms where they build the props were there; even the golf carts that travel around were there. one good example would be "big fat liar." that movie gave quite a tour of the universal studios. but, for me, the actual thing was nothing else but perfect.

saw a lot of familiar faces in LA, too. i'll start with seeing jharvis on our grand canyon tour. then, clarice when we were in san francisco. also saw byron chua in san diego. plus, i saw achi pia at universal studios (which is my future workplace, thank you very much for asking.. :) no harm in dreaming big!)...

oh well, all trips must come to an end. here i am, back in the philippines, wishing that the next time i set foot in LA, i would be there to work. universal studios, here i come! hehehe :)

i can't thank my parents enough for bringing me there :) they're the best! love them so much! :) plus, got to see achi in nagoya :)

v for vengeance, v for vendetta

i fell asleep and woke up with v for vendetta running in my mind... watched it yesterday with my two beloved cousins, namely jR and wincen :)

i loved every single part of the movie... it had the kind of script i want to be involved with someday... i want to write scripts like that. i want to bring out the effect v for vendetta had over the audience. i am just completely in awe with the film. i love the way v speaks - his intelligence, his being an artist and a literary (poet and writer) person in one. the way he moves and fights, simply just his appearance makes the crowd go gaga over him. the accent in his voice, the words he uses... such perfection. and yes, i have to agree wtih wilson lee flores about v being the perfect man if not for his selfish motive to seek revenge for what certain people did to him. but then again, he had a point, esp. with the government issues and how he and his fellow mates were tortured.

natalie portman gave a hands down performance as well. she fitted her role to a T. i could also feel her fear and anxiety, her want to break free, her hesitation... her role as evey hammond. the inspector had an important role in the movie too. the instinct and the gift of feeling was given much importance in his character. intuition can bring you to the bottom of things; it can help you resolve wrongdoings. sometimes, intuition is better and more important than facts and reason.

i do amit that i am not a big fan of politics and that the topic on the Nazis did not excite me as much as i should be, but how politics was delivered in the film made a whole lot of sense to me. also, every film certainly has to have a touch of love in it. in this case, v and evey... they could have been together if only...being a hopeless romantic, they could've had ways to stay together. but as a realistic person, it was the perfect ending the film could have. and i loved it.

plus, vendetta means a prolonged bitter quarrel with someone or a prolonged feud between families in which people are murdered in return for previous murders. now that explains the whole movie and it's title. V is the name. V stands for a lot of things. But here, V is for vengeance. V is for vendetta.
some quotable quotes:

* strength through unity, unity through faith.

* you carry a mask around for a long time that you forget who you are beneath it.

* people should not be afraid of their governments, governments should be afraid of their people.

* you can kill a man, but you can never kill an idea.

* there is no such thing as coincidence.

* my time is over, it's now up to your generation to build the future.

there are so much more quotes, i just didn't catch them... this only means one thing: hit the bookstores and get a copy of the novel!!! hahaha :) a must-watch movie!