conflict

conflict
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myself

i am someone who is delusional at times. someone who seeks for attention of others. someone who suffers from middle-child syndrome. someone who sees depression as an inspiration for writing. a poet. an emotional kid. but an optimist at the same time. weird. but true.

abandoned boots

abandoned boots
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Sunday, March 26, 2006

v for vengeance, v for vendetta

i fell asleep and woke up with v for vendetta running in my mind... watched it yesterday with my two beloved cousins, namely jR and wincen :)

i loved every single part of the movie... it had the kind of script i want to be involved with someday... i want to write scripts like that. i want to bring out the effect v for vendetta had over the audience. i am just completely in awe with the film. i love the way v speaks - his intelligence, his being an artist and a literary (poet and writer) person in one. the way he moves and fights, simply just his appearance makes the crowd go gaga over him. the accent in his voice, the words he uses... such perfection. and yes, i have to agree wtih wilson lee flores about v being the perfect man if not for his selfish motive to seek revenge for what certain people did to him. but then again, he had a point, esp. with the government issues and how he and his fellow mates were tortured.

natalie portman gave a hands down performance as well. she fitted her role to a T. i could also feel her fear and anxiety, her want to break free, her hesitation... her role as evey hammond. the inspector had an important role in the movie too. the instinct and the gift of feeling was given much importance in his character. intuition can bring you to the bottom of things; it can help you resolve wrongdoings. sometimes, intuition is better and more important than facts and reason.

i do amit that i am not a big fan of politics and that the topic on the Nazis did not excite me as much as i should be, but how politics was delivered in the film made a whole lot of sense to me. also, every film certainly has to have a touch of love in it. in this case, v and evey... they could have been together if only...being a hopeless romantic, they could've had ways to stay together. but as a realistic person, it was the perfect ending the film could have. and i loved it.

plus, vendetta means a prolonged bitter quarrel with someone or a prolonged feud between families in which people are murdered in return for previous murders. now that explains the whole movie and it's title. V is the name. V stands for a lot of things. But here, V is for vengeance. V is for vendetta.
some quotable quotes:

* strength through unity, unity through faith.

* you carry a mask around for a long time that you forget who you are beneath it.

* people should not be afraid of their governments, governments should be afraid of their people.

* you can kill a man, but you can never kill an idea.

* there is no such thing as coincidence.

* my time is over, it's now up to your generation to build the future.

there are so much more quotes, i just didn't catch them... this only means one thing: hit the bookstores and get a copy of the novel!!! hahaha :) a must-watch movie!

Thursday, March 09, 2006

ho hum...


depression seems to be my best friend these days... might be because of the semi-debate about life and death i had with migs a few weeks (or days) ago... why do we suffer in this world? why are we here if we didn't even choose to live in the first place? we didn't ask God to give us life in order to suffer... if God loves us so much, why doesn't he just satisfy us all so that there won't be any wars or whatsoever? for me, people endure the mood swings or bad days or sufferings because they know that there's something good waiting for them in the end... but migs had a point saying that in the end, we all die. there is nothing in the end except death. steffen and hannah told me that death is the end for all of us, unless you believe in afterlife... but at least before dying, you've felt happy and satisfied... this topic is just too much for me as of the moment.. i love talking about life and death, debating about it and all.. but that conversation i had with migs depressed me for a lot of days... i don't know why; it just did...

you know the feeling of being lonely when, in fact, you're not alone? you have friends, family, people around you who love you, but yet you still feel alone... you sit alone during a production, at the far end of your block mates who are cuddling up to their boyfriends... you know that your friends will always be there for you, but yet you still feel alone. the feeling sucks. having someone you care about tell you to break free, move on, and live a better life. sucks, but it's the truth. wearing a fake smile, telling you he's doing great while hearing from others that he's sad and all... knowing that that round and beautiful moon you once saw will never be as beautiful anymore, not without the person you shared the beauty of the moon with. big deal of nonsense. blabbering weakness. love turns to hatred. eating one alive.

can't wait for vacation... seems like i won't be spending my 18th birthday in the philippines... oh well...

sucks being depressed.

anyways, back to work for me.