break time.

head's throbbing real hard right now... migraine's kicking in again. i thank whoever invented "break time." hahaha :) i'm still in the office right now - file,type, file, type, look for the calculator. hahaha :) this is soooo far from what i studied for. seriously.

here i am again missing my friends - both college and high school ones. can't wait for tomorrow - plan to meet up with a couple of my HS buds for dinner. hallelujah! hahaha :) and meet up with rug and the others on saturday just for fun. i miss 'em a lot. i miss spending time with them and having lunches with them.

my life now is waking up in the morning and looking forward to the time my mom says, "let's go pick up shobe." hahaha :) at least i'm not that pressured here in work. i mean, i'm lucky and fortunate enough to have a reasonable load and a very understanding and patient mentor (who happens to be my mom) who just smiles at me and answers my questions with, "i learned that on my own when i was starting." or "do i have to teach you everything a second time?" hahaha :) but after that, she gives me decent answers to my questions. :)

yesterday, my aunt asked me to write receipts. and seriously, my hands were shaking. hahaha :) as in they were shaking. my best friend, as of yesterday, was the "liquid" in my mom's drawer. :) hahaha :) every mistake = one more bonding moment with the bottle of liquid. weee! ~_~

my cousin sharon got married last sunday. :) i'm really happy for her. she asked me to an AVP for her wedding. her and ahia francis's moments together. hahaha :) and i really enjoyed doing that AVP of hers. thankfully, when it was shown during the reception, people applauded and praised me for my work. :) it really felt good. i know that there were some parts that were really off (take the sound for instance since i forgot to turn off the electric fan when i recorded some interview parts) but my other cousins thought it was pretty good. :) i'm still an amateur-wanting-to-be-director-and-editor and i know that there's still much to learn, but i'm really glad that my cousin entrusted me with that project. :) it felt really good. and i guess practice makes perfect. :) need to keep the optimistic person in me alive :)

oh well, gonna get back to my table. almost back to work time. signing off. :)

nostalgia

today is officially my third day of my "getting-to-know-the-ins-and-outs-of-the-office" life. it's been around two weeks since my last day as a college student at dls-csb. i've gotta be honest though. i don't find the work i do to be much fun. it's cool to be working at the office and all, but it's really not what i studied for. i finished a course on theater and i'm doing a job involving calculators and the filing system. HA. but i guess this is what the elders usually say, we don't get the job we studied for. :) guess i'm just in my adjustment period. and to be honest, i am getting the hang of it. hehe :) well, i SHOULD get the hang of it :)
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last tuesday and wednesday -- went to punta fuego with a couple of my college friends. too bad some others couldn't follow since classes started on wednesday. haha :) it was really relaxing and fun. there were cabanas located somewhere on the shore of the beach. the cabanas had pillows!!! so i could sleep :) hahaha :) it's really a nice place... and having my friends with me made the moment better and more memorable. :)
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going to class seems just like yesterday. and yes, there have been a lot of instances that i miss going to school. waking up in the morning, catching the train going to school, eating with friends, complaining about the workload, dealing with teachers -- that's been my life for the past years. now that school is done, it really feels different. there are times i feel depressed.. missing my friends and all.. i get the feeling that i don't want to work just yet.. i want to rest. hahaha :) or at least not work before i have my graduation march. i miss being a student. i miss going to class. i miss eating lunch with my friends. i miss having free time. i got used to doing my own schedule - i had time. now, i need to follow a certain schedule. :-<>
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at work:
m: (while doing something else) write intial
e: (nervous) initial?
m: yeah
e: (thinking) initial as in my intials or initial as in initial payment?!?!?!?!?!
e: (writing down the word initial) I-N-I-T
m: ano yan?! write your initals, not the word initial..

(~_~*)

graduation.

i have finally walked the hallways of csb for the last time (as a student, that is). thursday (09-06-07) was judgement day - do or die, graduate or remain - and thankfully, all of us surpassed that day. :) a load off my shoulders. college life is done for me. :)



being nostalgic, images from the last few years run through my mind. from my frosh years to productions and finally, the present. people i have met, organizations i have entered, activities i have joined. everything has molded me into who i am right now. :) as the cliche line goes, "i've learned a lot of things in my stay in college.."



i've learned to deal with the different reactions when you tell a guy you like him. :) of all the reactions, i've come to treasure one. i had a major crush on this guy when i saw this guy during the first week of classes. :) and to be honest, he's actually the reason why i got to know a lot of people from his course. (thanks to him for that!) however, when i let him know that i liked him, things changed. he got mad at me. hahaha :) seriously... and until now, the mystery is still around. why did he get THAT mad at me for just letting him know that i liked him? :)



met a couple of professors that have let us live "the life outside SDA." hahaha :) in layman's terms, they were the professors who gave us hell. we had to work our asses off (as all students do), submit projects and report a different topic EVERY WEEK and settle for a 1.0 or 1.5 as our final grade. hahaha :) and all they can say is, "at least pareho yung grades niyong lahat." hahahaha :) WTF?!



curses... from the demure and innocent expression of "holy cow," my tongue has evolved into a creature i myself can't control. tang-ina, fuck, and shit seem more appropriate at times when the level of stress is rising. someone once told me, "dati ikaw yung ala maria clara ah... tapos ngayon, mas grabe ka pa magmura sa akin." it's not a comment to be proud of but i guess cursing and pressure comes with the college-life-package. :)



God.. i got to discover and find a new God cuz of my friends in college. they were the ones who told me stories and influenced me to TRY to become a better person. (disregard paragraph above... hahahaha) :) my faith still waivers every now and then, but hey.. your faith won't be that strong if it weren't for the simple "waiverings" every now and then. :)



happiness, joy, relaxation. that i got to know through my college friends. hannah nad rugin have always been there for me no matter what. and i love them for that. hannah and i are the extremes. hannah being the extremely happy person and i being the extremely serious person. i have a feeling we'd clash big time if it weren't for rugin in the middle. :) weird enough, the three of us hit it off pretty well. :) we were able to accomplish everything miss minchin and her accomplice required us to do. pretty darn good. :) i love them so much.



there are a lot of people and situations i thank. i've become a more mature person (hopefully) now and i think i am ready to face the world. :)



but of course, i can't forget to thank that someone who has been there for me even when there have been a lot of times that i have pushed him away. :) he's an artist who doesn't know how talented he is and how much i appreciate him being there for me. :) i thank him for being patient with me, esp. during my stressful moments. (ask my friends how i act when i'm stressed... hahahaha.. it ain't a pretty sight.) he's helped me and my girl friends through our "we-don't-know-what-to-do" times :) i thank him for everything. :) and i'm happy that he's there. :)



my college life has ended. :) sadly... but finally.

defense done.

at a nearby computer shop right now. waiting for camille to come so that we can settle our payments with the accounting office. i think i came to school too early. hahaha :) but it was okay. least i got to run some errands. and hopefully, i can finalize the whole thing before i go home later. i want the araquio funds dealt and done with.

had our thesis defense yesterday. it was nerve-wrecking at first cuz we didn't know what to report. we've had to defend our thesis for the past few months and having to defend it again was kinda weird. we didn't know what else to say, esp. since we've already executed the thesis itself. :) but least our panel was composed of miss magda, sir robin, and sir rondell. and was i glad when sir robin suggested that we all take a seat and make the thesis a tad informal. :) way cool! hahaha :) guess me crying during my thesis 1 class gave the panel a heads up that there was a weakling in the group. hahahaha :)

but i'm just glad that our thesis is done with. well, minus the funds that is. hahaha :)
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rugin: so, kailan nga tayo alis?
me: saan ba tayo punta? sa punta Tuego?
(all laugh sabay hirit si dane)
dane: saan yun?! sa baFangas?!

hahahahaha :) leche. ( ' o ' )V