bangag conversations.

dane: susunduin ka ni achi? naks! marunong na ako magchinese!
jon: panu yung brother?
dane: ahia
eu: eh younger brother?
dane: shoti!
eu: eh younger sister?
dane: (after a while) ice-cream yun eh... hmm..
eu and jon: ice-cream?!
dane: SHOBE!!!!
eu: ano yun, sorbetes?!
dane: oo noh, pinaghalong sorbetes tsaka sherbet!!
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ni: and then i saw abe waiting for the elevator. but didn't say hi na cuz he was at the other end.
daddy: so you guys didn't greet each other?
ni: nope. cuz he was at the other end. ang layo eh.
daddy: huh? ganung kalaki ba elevator niyo?
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m: lando, punta tayo salazar.
l: opo
(after a while)
m: lando, saan ka pupunta? salazar tayo ah
l: salazar po ba? akala ko sa la salle.
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dane: eu, kamukha mo yung katabi ko.
eu: ah thanks.
(after a while)
eu: ano sabi mo?
dane: ano ba akala mong sinabi ko?
eu: bakit ko naging kamukha si ratatouille?


what the?! hahahaha :)

coffee and san lazaro

it's nearing 5am and i still haven't slept a wink. got a feeling i'm going to be really moody tomorrow. but nothing a cup of coffee won't fix.. i think. i might need another starbucks bottle (the one that can be bought at department stores). it's actually more effective than the coffee at cafe mezzanine (somewhere in manila).

i had two cups of coffee at cafe mezzanine a few days ago. had a photo shoot for an mma friend of mine so had to put on make-up. that made my eyes kinda droopy. then when filip came around, i was half asleep. but got re-energized when shirley assigned me to be their SL stage manager on-the-spot. hahahaha :)

anyway, starbucks bottle works better for me now. so might have another bottle tom. hahaha :) no coffee = braindead. seriously. my friends bear witness. hahaha :)

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it's a sunday. well, it was sunday yesterday. and we had class. woop-de-doo. cheer cheer. hurrah hurrah. it was totally depressing. sunday?! school?! WHY?! but had a final presentation for sir morfe's class so it wasn't a waste going to school. sir seemed to have liked our presentation. that's good enough for me :) hehehe :) still have to set up the exhibit for his subject on wednesday.. when will this school term end?!?!?!
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since it rained real hard during our thesis date, none of our panelists were able to attend. so we have to give them vcd/dvd copies, which are due tomorrow. problem is i don't have a dvd burner, so went to SM San Lazaro a while ago to look for computer shops. unfortunately, the guard i asked said that netopia had already "pulled out" but there were around 2 computer shops that dealt with dvd burning. i rushed to the first one and everything was okay. except for the fact that their pc lacked space to store the temporary files of the video to be burned. or something like that.

i went to the second store. the guy asked me to buy a blank dvd since they didn't provide the blank cds. so, i lined up at cd-r-king and it took me eons before i reached the counter. but i bought the dvds and went back to the store. had to wait for the person in front of me to finish. finally, it was my turn! the kuya, however, wanted to burn the video as dvd data file. i insisted that i wanted the disc to play at dvd players. to cut the long story short, i kinda argued with him then after quite a while decided to just take the blank dvd and leave.

so i have no dvd copy and a very grainy vcd copy. oh well.
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the good thing that happened at sm san lazaro, though, was that i saw a familiar face. seriously. i don't know his name or where i met him or seen him. but it was just familiarity.

i was on my way down while he was on his way up. when i saw him, i thought he looked familiar. he looked at me too and guess the same thought was running in his head. finally, he just smiled at me and made a little wave. i did the same. it was just a few seconds but the feeling was nice. what i mean is that it's nice to be familiar wiht someone, even if you don't know the name or whatsoever. :) hehehe :)

that kinda brightened up my sour graping mood a while ago. :)
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it's almost 5:15am. so much things yet to do. haaay... hehehe :)

poem at plaza v

because of one phone call you didn't answer,

I had to go to Nueva Ecija alone.

because the video "Doors" decided to appear now,

I had the whole night to nurse my tears.

because we aren't in speaking terms anymore,

I didn't see you on the night of our thesis.

because we "broke up" badly,

I can't be there fr you like I used to.

because i don't know a thing about you anymore,

I wish i could get to know you once again.

because it seems as if you despise me,

I have no one beside me right now.

because you thought i moved on easily,

I am still not over you now.

because i remember all the times we were together,

I hurt when i walk the hallways in school.

because i know no one else understands me,

I miss you even more so...

because i regret every minute of letting you go,

I dream of you - hugging you and never letting go.

because being with you is now impossible,

I drown in my own self-pity.

flowers for me. :)

for our staging of Araquio: Ang Paghahanap sa Tierra Santa. thanks thanks :)

august 16, 2007. received it noon time by delivery.

araquio.

finally, thesis is done. :) woopee for that! but all i can say is we went through HELL just to stage that show. this was how our yesterday went by.

August 15, 2007

got to school at 8:30am. the freshmen were already there so we waited for hannah and camille's van. camille called around 10am saying that she was near and that na-traffic lang because it was raining cats and dogs. soon did we find out that camille was near MCO (our venue) while we were waiting at school! so, we had to wait again for the van to go to csb main. we left around 12noon.

while waiting, there were incidents that happened. taft hotel called me up telling me that a cast member used the phone line and that we had a 204. something bill that we have to settle. after that, i had to check with ms. grace regarding our bus. lo and behold, ms. grace told me that they (the GAS office) has made their stand. they've decided not to push through with our 8:30 or 9pm trip and ship the actors back to nueva ecija. reason? because the typhoon will most likely hit NE. problem number 2: will we rent another bus or a few vans or do we ask the actors to stay another night? where?

and of course, since it was raining REALLY hard, classes were suspended. problem number 3: what will happen to our audience? how about the bus? what will happen? HOW ABOUT OUR SHOW? but as the saying goes, "THE SHOW MUST GO ON."

my cel phone was ringing off the hook the whole day, literally. ms. magda and taft hotel were calling me to confirm and ask questions. i had to keep calling dane and arnie to keep communication (since they were already at MCO).

also, we had to pick up the souvenir programs that was supposedly scheduled to be picked up at 8 or 9am. but due to lack of transportation and misunderstanding, we picked the programs at around 12 something. hannah and i had to take a pedicab to and from the place. the souvenir programs were to my liking though. so that kinda brightened my day.

hannah and i rushed to camille's van. just in time, since the moment we stepped into the van was the moment rain poured down. unfortunately, i had to run down again to charlito's to claim the lunch. kristoffer, a freshman, went with me. and i thank him for that. we rushed through the rain, got the food, and went back to the van. if someone had given us soap and shampoo, i guess we could've taken a bath there :) hahaha :)

to make things worse, we got stuck in traffic for around 2-3 hours. we had to cancel our 1pm show.

finally, we arrived at the venue. i had to finish editing the AVP, rox had to test the sound system, dane and rug had to cue the lights, arnie had to direct the actors, hannah and i had to know the cues to stage manage the whole production. no one could leave their positions.

thankfully, the freshmen were there to help us out. thank God for them. :)

the day was literally hell. to stage a production in two months was impossible. having the cast of that two-month preparation live in nueva ecija didn't exactly lighten up the burden. but we pulled it off. iSDA productions pulled it off. and i thank the Lord for that. :)

thanks to mandy, jojo, sir manolet, sir jethro, and my buddy for taking the time to watch our play, even if it was raining real hard that day. :) thanks too to those who watched! :)

there will be no play that will be as IMPOSSIBLE as ours.

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yu: how much yung TF ng actors?

eu: TF nila?

yu: yeah. how much?

eu: 20

yu: 20 pesos?!

hahahahahahaha :) that was part of our conversation back stage. :) that line made my day.

rainy days.

it's our second no-class day today. woohoo! :) storms hit manila and classes in all levels are suspended! actually, i don't know if having no classes is a blessing or a curse. i consider it a blessing since we don't have to go to our class (duh!) but i find it a curse 'cause when we do get back to class, the workload will pile up. also, our thesis is in a crisis mode right now. still having problems with our finances. and still don't have souvenir programs. woop-de-doo. i am sooo jumping with joy (sense the sarcasm?) hahaha :) but yeah, my thesis mates and i are practically floating on a piece of wood in the pacific ocean. that's how dead we are. not to mention that the show is, uh, 5 days from now! beat that! hahaha :) i am so in need of help.

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chatted with teddy yesterday. i was convincing him that i have multiple personality disorder. and that he, based from yesterday, was dealing with 5 different "me" personalities. there was ms. perky, ms. emo, ms. angry, ms. calm, and ms. i-don't-have-a-care-in-the-world. my personal favorite was the last one. our conversation for at least half an hour went like this:



teddy: so, how do you find the weather today?

ms. i-don't-have-a-care-in-the-world: i don't know. i don't have a care in the world.

teddy: *raised eyebrow*

ms. i-don't have-a-care-in-the-world: why are you raising your eyebrow at me? wait, i shouldn't be asking that question. i don't have a care in the world.



and the conversation went on and on and on... with me changing my personalities in mid-sentence. i am that sabog.

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hope our figaro entries make it to the final 12. i'm hoping and praying and wishing. *saying a short prayer*

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also got to chat with my ahia min. :) he's now taking up his medical degree (is that grammatically correct?) at UERM right now. he seems to be enjoying his stay there. good for him. well, at least i have a future doctor to go to. hahaha :) all i can say is that i'm proud of him. for making it that far. and so far he's the only one who actually knows this URL. so i'm guessing he'll most probably read this entry. if he does, well *kudos to everything you've done, hia min. :) keep up the good work. and self-esteem? don't belittle yourself. so what with what happened before? traumatic experiences are made for you to deal with and soon forget. :) aight? hugs to you. :)* and if he doesn't get the chance to read it, well.. nothing i can do there. hahaha :)

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from another window yesterday:



kac: ilang hours ba yung play?

esa: originally, it's being staged for 10 hours. but since thesis namin, my thesis mate cut it down to two hour.

kac: tanginang play yan! 10 hours?!?!?!?!



hahahahahaha :) i dunno.. i just kept laughing when i read the reply. hahaha :) okay.. maybe i AM stressed.

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my ym status message yesterday was a plain and simple word. "tangina." and i received lots of messages. hahaha :) it actually made my day better. really. i was on wits end already with the cost of the souvenir programs. we still don't have a printing company right now and the last we canvassed, one souvenir program will cost as 110Php at the cheapest!! wtf?! okay, i better stop before i actually curse out how i feel in this entry.



anyway, i had that status message and the first one who messaged me was my buddy. he was always one to make me laugh. :) teddy messaged me as well; thus, our weird conversation which can actually be made into a film script. not a bad idea.. hmmm (read above). hahaha :) then nick told me that he can't imagine me saying that and that he hoped everything was okay. aww... :) ahia fred's first message to me in a few month's time was, "wow, ang lutong ng staus mo ah." hahahaha :) even pao, jack, and geneve messaged me. hia vinne also told me to relax and chill.



i'm not proud of my status message or what. it was just how i felt that time.. and right now.. i was down in the dumps. i didn't and still don't know what to do with our monetary problems. who the hell likes money problems?! but guess having those people message me.. even if it was a one-liner or just a simple smile.. it melted my heart. there are still people out there who care.



guess that kinda answered some questions running in my mind ever since i had to deal with the "what happened with the two of you?" issues in school. angry glances from people i used to hang out with. pissed looks from people i used to share stories with. disappointment in the eyes of others. and cold shoulder treatment with the one i used to love.



we live in different worlds now - him and me. and i guess nothing, as in nothing, can bring back what we used to have. leave us to deal with our memories. they'll always be the happy ones.



but yeah, guess i realized that i'm not alone at all. that there are people who still care. but i guess i still need the assurance every now and then.



i am such an emo kid. hahaha :)

tired.

i've never felt this tired before. i feel my heavy eyes dropping. i feel my temples throbbing real hard. i feel my stomach churning. i feel my mind lapsing. i have never felt this tired before.

slept around 1 or 1:30am last sunday and woke up at 2am. dane was near our house so i had to get up and get ready for the long day ahead. drove to taft to pick up rugin. and then waited for the rest until around 4am. went to crame to leave dane's car and change to jeff's car. got to NLEX at around 6am. rox and i couldn't let the day start without having a cup of coffee (our minds were dead before we had coffee) so stopped by one of the NLEX stopovers.

went straight to nueva ecija. got there around 9:10am. and waited for the cast. it was exhausting. arnie blocked some scenes and we saw what we'll, more or less, expect for our thesis.

left nueva ecija at 5pm or so. waited with dane and rug at gapan for jeff for bout an hour and a half. hannah, cj, rox, and arnie went home first. reached edsa at 9 something pm.

when i got home, had to finish the presentation for sir jay's class.

then yesterday, rushed our (me and teddy's) entries for the figaro contest. *fingers crossed for that* then had a meeting with miss magda regarding our thesis's budget.

when i woke up today. my head was throbbing like hell. i don't know if it was because of being tired or because i got soaked in rain yesterday. i'm guessing the latter.

oh well. i just feel so tired. and a lot of deadlines are still pending.

WATCH ARAQUIO:ANG PAGHAHANAP SA TIERRA SANTA. :) to be shown at the EQUITABLE-PCI MAKATI CHAMBER ORCHESTRA (1pm/5pm) tickets are at 150 Php each. Support Philippine Theater!! :)

stress.

bulging eyes. sleepless nights. major headaches. hanging minds. pressure. stress. an enemy of all kinds.

play dates are getting nearer and nearer. competition's getting fiercer and fiercer. all eyes are on us. can we do it? being the center of attention is not much fun after all.

eyes burning in on me. judging my every move. i hear dictates everywhere. what to do. where to go. "you need to decide for yourself." i don't want to. i might pick the wrong one. "what is your decision?" i don't know my decision, that's why i'm asking you. "when is the deadline for what i'm suppposed to do?" i don't know. i'll give a random date to you. i'm not the one in-charge of everything. i can't do this by myself. i'm an indecisive freak. someone's gotta help me out with this.

never felt this drained before. it's as if life has sucked itself out of humanity. it isn't fun, really. misery. the want to please everyone. the need to prove yourself. the fight for what you deem right. it's exhausting. it's tiresome. it's life.

problems will always strike hard. change is the only thing constant. a kingdom will once again be built. a different era. a different setting. a different me.

right now, thesis should be dealt and done with.

i'm having problems with making fake snowballs, food, and blood. WHY? i ask. WHY do we have to do this? WHY were the projects given the hell week of our thesis? WHY? :(

i can't do this alone. i can't.

memories and thesis

got to talk to steffen on the phone a while ago. :) it's been a LONG while since i got the chance and time to chit-chat with my best guy friend on the phone. told him what's been bothering me for the past few months. and as usual, he has given his opinion and advice. i wonder why he didn't major in AB-Psychology. the title and job would've fit him to a T. i really missed talking to him. :)

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our thesis is soon to be staged. we're having trouble with our funds and i honestly don't know how to solve that problem of ours. we'll be needing more support (both financially and emotionally) if we're to stage the show on time. but i've got faith. i know we can do this. we're just really down in the dumps, financially speaking. hahaha :)
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Our thesis is a traditional play from Nueva Ecija. The play has been staged every first week of May ever since the 1800s. It tells the story about Queen Elena and the search for the Holy Cross. It's a play about religion, but has a comedic twist to its script. "Araquio" has always been staged in open space (e.g. plazas). However, this time around, it will be the actors' first time to stage the play at a proscenium theater (with lights, sounds, and a roof above their heads).

Our actors will be arriving in Manila from Penaranda, Nueva Ecija to stage the said play.

It will be an honor to stage one of the few remaining traditional Filipino plays still existing in the country.

So, come one come all. Let's support Philippine Theater! Mahalin ang sariling atin!

Araquio: Ang Paghahanap sa Tierra Santa will be showing at Equitable-PCI's Makati Chamber Orchestra on August 15, 2007 at 1:00pm and 6:00pm. Tickets are sold at Php 150.00. If interested, please leave a message or contact us via texting 0917.5354563.