cool quiz

ok, i am at the yearbook office. and it's raining cats and dogs outside. hmp. it's 8:47am, have been in school ever since 7:30am. damn. hahaha :)

You scored as Theater.

You should be a Theater major! Like a bohemian actress, you are seasoned and confident and not afraid to express yourself!


Theater - 100%
Journalism - 92%
Dance - 75%
English - 75%
Linguistics - 75%
Sociology - 75%
Art - 75%
Philosophy - 58%
Psychology - 58%
Biology - 42%
Anthropology - 33%
Engineering - 33%
Mathematics - 25%
Chemistry - 17%

this is a cool quiz/survey/whatever you wanna call it. :) got it from sharleen's page. hahaha :) this kind of boosted up my view on my course, if it's really for me or not. :) cooL.... hahaha :)

What is your Perfect Major?
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more than friends, less than lovers

such a good man. caring. understanding. sweet. cute. charming. funny. witty. honest. no pretentions. gentleman. everything a girl could ask for...

he'd text me every morning till night. even if i fall asleep without replying (which i often do so)...
he'd walk me to the lrt. even if 5 minutes was left before his class starts.
he'd hug me. and hug me. and hug me some more.
he'd call my celphone and talk for 30 minutes about stalkers and flowers.
he'd give me a stuffed toy so that i won't forget him when he goes to singapore (his future workplace).
he'd text me that he misses me when he was in singapore.
he'd put a smile on my face just by being himself.
he'd tell jokes, even if they were corny.
he'd dance around. and twirl me around. as if we knew how to dance.
he'd tell me that my punches can't hurt him because he's macho.
he'd accompany me until my dad came to fetch me.
he'd tell me different stories, starting off our conversations.
he'd tell me encouraging words when i'm in a down mood.
he'd hold my hand and never let go.
he'd get to know my friends and my school mommy better.
he'd promise to bring me to punta fuego and atc.
he'd ask me where i was and run to find me.
he'd text me and say that he's hoping he can see me before his class.
he'd be there for me.
he'd tell me that he loves me in bisaya.
he'd ask for just one chance while others asked for second chances.

he'd be the reason why i look forward to school everyday.
he'd make me laugh and smile and make my day brighter.

call me stupid. a coward. someone who can't fight for herself.

but the thing is, be it i like/love him or not, i'm just not strong enough to do what i can do... and that is fight for him. i'm tired of what is happening. i don't wanna face days that feel this bad anymore. i can't bring myself to do it. i admit that i'm a coward in my own way.

life is full of i-don't-knows. that's what he said. we don't know what the future has in store for us. the future's always a mystery.

but in this case, present tell the future for me. i can't disobey them. i don't have the strength to do so. i'm weak....

i don't know what's going to happen. no one knows. as he said, life is full of i-don't-knows.

i told my friend once, "the girl he's gonna like is gonna become real lucky." just so happens i did become that lucky girl. i was lucky to have him in my life. but luck just didn't agree with me.

as the saying goes, "most good things must come to an end." bull crap. but yet again, i don't know.

never did i think that i'd utter these words.

more than friends, less than lovers.

realization..

i had the chance to talk to my parents yesterday... and i really felt guilty... for saying a lot of things... for thinking that they were against me all along... that i was just being treated as the black sheep in the family...

i was wrong. i felt their fear. i felt their worry. i felt their want to make the right decisions.

i had the chance to really talk to my parents and i felt their parental love and guidance. they want the best for me. that sums up everything. they want me to be happy and have a beautiful life. nothing in this world would make them happier than to see their daughters successful and happy. :) being parents, it's a given that there are certain things they worry about. i'll repeat again... they want the best for me. :)

i guess i'll never fully grasp the concept of 'worrying' as a parent. that's something that i'll come to learn when my turn comes to become a parent. which is like two decades away. hehe :)

i apologize for all the blabbing things i said about mom and dad. i guess now i've realized how hard it is to become a parent, esp. if the kid's someone like me. hehehe :) i know that there are times that they commit mistakes and there are times that they find it hard to tell us to reconsider some of our decisions. but they've done a pretty good job as my parents. and i'm proud of them. i love them so much. :) no one job can be equal to the hardships and patience a parent needs to have. :)

i love my mom and dad so much. :)

so, whoever's reading my entry, do give your parents a pat on the back, a kiss, and a hug. :) they're truly the stars that shine amongst the darkness. :)

freaking day.

putang ina talaga. this day is just so full of shit. should i go over every fucking detail of my miserable life? nah, don't think so.i'll just cut to the chase. okay. i'm in u.p. and about to watch a play. met up with sophie.. haven't seen my beshie for a while now;i guess that was the nicest thing that happened to me today. so after the play, we get ready to leave.

no one was going to pass by sm north edsa and i, being the nonchalant and dumb person that i am, did not have an inkling as to how i was going to get my ass back home. see? nonchalant, dumb, ignorant girl = me. so lesson learned: if you hate my guts, leave me in the middle of nowhere and i'll be dragging my sorry ass up to you.
anyway, i was fortunate enough to have ms. alfon, joey, rox, camille, etc. to save me from being lost and took me with them to eat. we went to sweet intentions first but decided for cantjinas in the end. oh yes, i reached katipunan, the restaurant just in front of admu. yes, that's the one. others had beer and nachos, joey and rox settled for burritos and water (i think). so i was there. didn't order anything because my cel kept on ringing. you know the feeling that you want people to just leave you alone? you know they care for you and all but you just want to be left alone. damn. some don't understand that concept. so ring ring ring non-stop for my phone. and guess what, a hello would be nice for someone on the other line. but no, shouting was the award winning action that had to take place. so yes, i was literally bugged and shouted at for about 20 minutes. i honestly didn't know how to go hone so joey offered that we ride the tric to the katipunan station and that's when we would go our separate ways. or rox would be able to commute with me by jeep and bus until monumento. so yay, problem solved. or so i wished. no, my cel just had to keep ringing. and take note, i was having the why-all-of-times-my-cel-chose-now case of low battery. anyway, i couldn't dodge the calls. i answered and was told that i had better get my ass to where i was wanted. so instead of having one person to accompany me to wherever destination, i had my none. not bad for a first-timer.

really. my life is just so shitty recently. it is just so shitty. really, my life does not deserve a better term than "shitty." god, i am sopathetic. but then, that makes my life even more shitty. whatever.

the whole "it's for your own good." i respect it. but damn, i just wish i had a little freedom, a little TRUST. damn trust issues. i amalways surrounded by them. damn.

and my situation right, my thoughts about him and what could and SHOULD be ain't making things any easier. damn it.

just like the rumbling photo. my life has no steady or stable thing right now.

ain't easy to live my fucking life.

meet mocha

meet mocha. cute, charming, and cuddly. :) given to me by someone who thinks i'll forget him when he goes to singapore. gosh, how right.. i need a stuffed toy to remind me that someone like him exists in this world. hmp. :) that's where he's wrong. :)
was supposed to name mocha after he who gave mocha to me but decided against it. if i did that, i'd have no nickname for him anymore. hahaha :) so, i gave vanilla (hannah's teddy) a counterpart. taa-daa... meet mocha :) cute, cute, cute. soft. cuddly. petite. lovable. huggable. kissable. did i mention cute? :) hahaha :)
"i chose him out of a zoo of animals shouting 'pick me!' and i told him to take care of you while i'm gone." so sweet. hehe :) i'd be a hypocrite if i said i wasn't expecting anything from him (he told me that he had a 'grand master plan!'), but actually seeing him get the blue magic bag out of his bag and giving it to me was different. it felt nice. hehehe :) ever since this term started, i've seen a different him. weird how i'd come to like him. most friends tell me that they expected it and stuff like that but i honestly didn't expect that i'd like him.

having said that now, there's THE problem i have to face once again. i don't know what'll happen tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. he told me that everything'll be all right as long as we're happy with each other. but is it true? i always question myself. will i be able to return everything he's giving me? will i be able to describe him as 'someone i love?' will i be able to be free with him? will the feeling of fear ever leave me? will i be able to feel what i want with him with people judging our every action? will i? questions that will never have positive answers.
i've asked hannah and rugin once about everything, about my feelings. yes, i'm really confused with how i feel right now. they just told me that i'd never be able to assert how i feel and feel the freedom of being loved and loved by this certain someone because of traditions. the ever-so-famous traditions that i never seem to get tired of trying to break. but of course, i always lose.

mood : bad trip. why? don't ask me.

fell asleep with my lighdes notes on my side at around 12 something last night. woke up at 4 and studied again. haha. went back to sleep after an hour. had to wake up at 5:50 and go to uno with shobe. ate breakfast with parents. went to csb. went to find hana. got together with rugen, arnie, hana, and jc at the cafeteria and reviewed for our lighdes midterm exam. passed the exam. whew!

after lighdes, had arnis training with sir paul. learned a lot of new stuff. cool training. hehe :) loved the synchronization of the drum beats and the arnis sticks hitting one another. :) so better watch out for duyan ng kagitingan!
practice ended at around 5:30pm. changed clothes. went to lrc ext. and found neppy, byron,nora, and teddy. rugen and hana went to rugen's condo to take a quick shower. teddy went with me to the caf to grab a bite. ate my favorite snack in country style, tiger pawz. yum! hehe :) went to worlite class. 6-9... my goodness.... had a poem comprehension exam. i didn't finish it. wished she just made us write whatever we understood. but she asked questions and we had to answer them. ugh!

last but not the least, i had to come home. yes, and be scolded. potna naman eh! if i talk about my day, they cut me short. they don't really listen. sabagay, who would listen to someone who's blabbing about her day sa araw araw na ginawa ng diyos? and if i don't talk, she thinks i'm in a foul mood, which results to THE scolding. i dunno. i'm not happy. it's hard. i really don't understand myself at times.

my life's a bitch. potna talaga.

midterms...

i should be studying right now. midterm week = cram week = hell week = super stress = low batt everyday.

went online right now to check for new updates on our upcoming production :) hehehe :) yes, our ojt1 is to help nathan out with this thesis, a play. duyan ng kagitingan. and i'm playing the role of ba'e la-iya :) hehehe :) i'm gonna speak mandarin! while the rest speak old tagalog. yay! :) so i'm gonna be in my own world :) hahaha :) but take note! i have an interpreter! o db? sosyal! san ka pa?! :) hahaha :)

saw this link sent by sheryl go. it's really nice. :) hehe. just wanted to share it with whoever's reading my blog. hehe :) http://www.paete.org/parentswish/site01/big.html :)