putang ina talaga. this day is just so full of shit. should i go over every fucking detail of my miserable life? nah, don't think so.i'll just cut to the chase. okay. i'm in u.p. and about to watch a play. met up with sophie.. haven't seen my beshie for a while now;i guess that was the nicest thing that happened to me today. so after the play, we get ready to leave.
no one was going to pass by sm north edsa and i, being the nonchalant and dumb person that i am, did not have an inkling as to how i was going to get my ass back home. see? nonchalant, dumb, ignorant girl = me. so lesson learned: if you hate my guts, leave me in the middle of nowhere and i'll be dragging my sorry ass up to you.
anyway, i was fortunate enough to have ms. alfon, joey, rox, camille, etc. to save me from being lost and took me with them to eat. we went to sweet intentions first but decided for cantjinas in the end. oh yes, i reached katipunan, the restaurant just in front of admu. yes, that's the one. others had beer and nachos, joey and rox settled for burritos and water (i think). so i was there. didn't order anything because my cel kept on ringing. you know the feeling that you want people to just leave you alone? you know they care for you and all but you just want to be left alone. damn. some don't understand that concept. so ring ring ring non-stop for my phone. and guess what, a hello would be nice for someone on the other line. but no, shouting was the award winning action that had to take place. so yes, i was literally bugged and shouted at for about 20 minutes. i honestly didn't know how to go hone so joey offered that we ride the tric to the katipunan station and that's when we would go our separate ways. or rox would be able to commute with me by jeep and bus until monumento. so yay, problem solved. or so i wished. no, my cel just had to keep ringing. and take note, i was having the why-all-of-times-my-cel-chose-now case of low battery. anyway, i couldn't dodge the calls. i answered and was told that i had better get my ass to where i was wanted. so instead of having one person to accompany me to wherever destination, i had my none. not bad for a first-timer.
really. my life is just so shitty recently. it is just so shitty. really, my life does not deserve a better term than "shitty." god, i am sopathetic. but then, that makes my life even more shitty. whatever.
the whole "it's for your own good." i respect it. but damn, i just wish i had a little freedom, a little TRUST. damn trust issues. i amalways surrounded by them. damn.
and my situation right, my thoughts about him and what could and SHOULD be ain't making things any easier. damn it.
just like the rumbling photo. my life has no steady or stable thing right now.
ain't easy to live my fucking life.
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