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conflict
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myself

i am someone who is delusional at times. someone who seeks for attention of others. someone who suffers from middle-child syndrome. someone who sees depression as an inspiration for writing. a poet. an emotional kid. but an optimist at the same time. weird. but true.

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Tuesday, October 31, 2006

fun fun fun :)

tagaytay -- achi ste, achi, me, cherie, and bri :)


jed, raven, shirley, phangga, aica :)

sir john, me, mandy, hannah, and jackie :)

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duyan ng kagitingan (oct. 24-27, 2006)

the production is finally done. capoot! (uh... i dunno if i used the expression correctly or not... =P) had five shows and all went well. one show per day from tuesday to thursday and two shows on friday. the runs were pretty good. i didn't really like the run i had on wednesday though. i committed a lot of mistakes, like forgetting my lines and not showing the white hanky (which was actually a very impt. hand prop). and that was the night ahia han, buddy, erick, jimai, and casper (wow, new friend!) went to watch. oh well, so much for confidence when people you know are there to support you. :) hehehe :)

the one run wherein i really felt the audience was a big challenge was the thursday show. the audience had no reaction at all. they weren't reacting AT ALL. that's one thing that makes actors and actresses backstage nervous. the audience didn't clap or laugh or smile. we didn't hear oohs or aaahs or anything that could be heard from the audience area. no, they were dead silent. well, except for the part when i spoke chinese. they laughed. yes, that's what they did - laughed. on the other hand, the 1pm show on friday - that audience, i loved. :) they laughed and cheered and rooted for dum-arok as he killed ma'la with his last blow. :) hahaha :)

i'm pretty happy to have done the re-staging of duyan. met new friends, dealt with new problems, learned a few ins and outs in theater life, got to know old friends better, and learned a bit more of sign language... thanks to sir john :) won't forget the dancers from ballet philippines we worked with - jomer, lora, jonah, andro, camille, alvin, karmela, and vince. plus got the chance to work with bryce and aica. :) cool people. new friends. an everlasting friendship. :) also, got to hold the hand of my crush! waaaaaaah! :) hahahaha :)

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theft...

was on my way home one night. was with my dad in the car. there was a truck in front of us. a kid ran to it and tried to open the back of the truck. the metal doors were locked and didn't budge. so the kid opened a small rectangle door also at the back of the truck. i myself didn't know there was an opening there until i saw what the kid did. he got a metal thing out of that opening and ran without closing the opening. he looked back but ran as fast as he could. and the truck driver didn't know a thing. tsk tsk tsk. talk about philippines being related to poverty and theft.

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went to tagaytay with my cousins (oct. 27-29, 2006)

che, brian, and achi went to csb to fetch me after my last show of duyan ng kagitingan. ate at chicken chicken. we went to makati to fetch achi ste, who just got off work. then, we left manila. :) reached tagaytay at around 10 something. chit-chatted with cousins then we all went to bed. next morning, we got up and had brunch at leslie's. met my cousin's boyfriend.. lau. :) that night, we cooked mashed potatoes, pesto spaghetti, custard, and japanese pancake. yum! :) hehehe :) it was cool. we also watched veronica mars non-stop! i love that show... really. :) hahaha :) even my cousins got addicted to it! see the influence we have?! gosh! :) hahaha :) last day we were there, we went to eat at bag of beans. cool place they have. yummy pies too! :) hee hee :)

been a while since i've bonded with my cousins. it felt nice and warm. we could understand one another, being in the same situation and sometimes having the same problems. hehehe :) nice to have someone to talk to. looking forward to the next cousin bonding session we'll be having :)

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had our fotogra midterm exam yesterday. it was a 15 item mind boggling exam. don't know what score i got but i hope i pass. hehe :)

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just a funny scene from veronica mars:

EXT. NEPTUNE HIGH SCHOOL PARKING LOT. DAY.

VMARS IS WAITING FOR LOGAN IN THE PARKING LOT. LOGAN NEARS.

logan: i'm really getting used to seeing a hot blonde waiting for me every morning before school starts.
vmars: i'm getting used to it too.
logan: but i'm not blonde.
vmars: or hot!

gets? hee hee :) okei... i know i know... i'd be better off with my mouth shut. but hey, it doesn't hurt to share :D

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

recap...

*henna by hannah. ba'e laiya.



i rode on the silver LRT train, the one that had a broken airconditioner. there was a girl who stood in front of me. we exchanged smiles and faces that expressed "it's so hot!" then she got her copy of the new free newspaper that's given in LRT stations and handed a leaf of it to me. she smiled and said, "ito oh. ang init eh." really, there still are angels here on earth. :)

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set up for duyan ng kagitingan took place on saturday and sunday (oct 21 and 22, '06). i climbed the scaffolds to set up the lights and mics. it was scary but fun. TIRING too. :) hehehe :)

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first show of duyan was yesterday (oct 23). the run was all right, considering that we didn't have a decent dress tech rehearsal before the show. it was obvious most of us were nervous. hehe :) hope the succeeding runs would be become better and better ("_)

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there was an old lady (teacher from cksc) who stressed me out from 12 something to 130pm. she told me that she thinks our play is ugly (even though she hasn't seen it yet and she threw the tickets we were selling! ugh!). other than that, she told me that i should've taken up ACCOUNTING! (i'm not interested in math, thank you very much for asking.) and she sermoned me about love. she told me not to get married since SHE considered men to be pigheads who just want money (wtf?!). really, she actually told me that there were many guys who courted her! (what happened to eye glasses and contact lens?!) sheesh! i'm getting more evil by the minute. it's just weird that she barged into my life for that short span and managed to sermon me for around 30 minutes. wow. may God never let me meet her again.

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i have a new crush! waaaaa!!! he's so cute! :) hee hee... my co-actor in our play. watch our play if you wanna know who.. (hahaha... nang-intriga!) :) he's just plain cute. hee hee :) kinikilig ako! :D

but really.. duyan ng kagitingan. oct 25-27. 5pm. there's a 1pm show on oct. 27. csb theater. 150php.

Friday, October 13, 2006

interesting...

*rugin scared, robbie dressed as angel of death*

*me and hannah (1st year college)*


what has happened:

- i've had a steaming conversation with one of the personnel in the GAS/reservations office.

our group needed the list of available facilities and equipment for the theater. we also needed the plans of the theater (floor plans, elevation plans, etc.). we wrote a letter and spent almost 2 weeks waiting for a reply. only the floor plan was given. sux.. so when i went to the office to inquire for the list of available facilities, a guy asked me what i needed. i told him that i needed the list. then started the steaming conversation - he questioned my course, my abilities, and worse of all, my knowledge. i felt insulted. take note: i had not yet eaten anything that day and my head was hurting from our fotogra class which took place beneath the hot sun. what i would give to see someone strangle that man's neck.

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- i've fought with two of my professors. well, they scolded us.

namely sir jay and miss alfon. it was our fault, actually. something to do with our class requirement and not giving the complete-complete presentation. considering that we were already juniors, well, we were grilled alive. that was sir jay's class. unfortunately, he told ms alfon... who in turn, scolded us more during our rehearsals for duyan. talk about the domino effect. i admit that i felt bad the day and the few days after they scolded us... who wouldn't?... esp. since we climbed the theater catwalk and scaffloding to get the measurements and all.

well, talked to them. things seem to be all right now. but then again, i don't wanna assume.

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- we went to the theater to gather measurements and observations and dealt with ghosts.

yes, the CSB theater is indeed haunted! waaa! i'm seriously not making this up. migs, rug, and i were at the tech booth of the theater. migs was sitting on a table and was hitting his foot on it; thus, the sound *thud thud thud* the thing was migs was at the far left side of the booth when rug and i were at the far right. rug and i both heard a *thud* coming from our side of the room. all of us looked at one another and migs said, "ako lang yun. tignan niyo ah." he stopped hitting his foot on the table. BUT the *thud* still continued. creeeepy... and yes, we ran downstairs. hahahahaha :)

we had to climb the catwalk to get the measurements. the catwalk is the top of the acting area, a very dark place. i was on the catwalk, rug was on the ladder, and hannah was on the stage. i heard clicking noises. i knew it was coming from somewhere near me, but didn't dare say anything. soon enough, i asked hannah, "han, may naririnig ba kayong click na sound? parang yung switch sa ilaw?" hannah paused and said, "ganyan ba?" she twisted the cap on her ball pen and yes, it was the same sound. so, i was relieved. a second later, i heard the clicking sound again and looked at hannah. she was looking at me and she wasn't twisting her ball pen. yikes! i said, "hindi ikaw yun eh." hannah just said, "may iba." hahaha :) ooookay!! na-jabar kaming lahat!!!!! hahahaha :)

catwalk again... it was creepy 'cause i could hear the "woooooo" sounds there. i'm not joking. it really sounded like spirits wooo-ing. creepy. good thing my group mates were there with me. yikes be-dikes! hehehe :)

the theater experience was creepy but fun. esp. when you're with hannah... she has a gift. YIKES! hahaha :)

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- i was home alone during the weekend.

my family went to china and i was left home alone. hahaha :) it was an inauguration of my late grandfather's project so the family was asked to go. i was supposed to have class on friday and saturday... so i chose not to go. the saturday class is a class i don't want to miss. unfortunately, those classes did not push through. the profs were absent. ugh! but had rehearsals, so my weekend wasn't put to waste at all. hehehe :)

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- saw someone get hurt on the LRT

rode the LRT to school. heard a *thud*. everyone was craning their necks for a better look at what happened. i didn't get to see. soon, a guy was announcing for another guy, "....., hinahanap po kayo ng kasama niyo. punta nalang po kayo sa harapan ng tren." it was later on that i saw an old lady with a cloth on her head. she was bleeding. i guess she tripped on her way up the train and hit her head. hope she's doing all right now...