nearing the end of january...

man, time really flies... and it flies fast... new year was just a few weeks back and now, i'm looking towards the end of january...

red seems to be the dominant color nowadays... if not for chinese new year, then for the day of the hearts... weird... valentine's still seems so distant, yet the malls are dressed up in red and pink... :) it hurts my eyes just to see those colors everywhere i go... hahaha :)

it's my momsy's birthday today :) had dinner with fam... too bad achi isn't here though... miss her dearly... hehe :)

tecthe1 class was interesting.. we watched a movie/play/theater production called quidam; it's french... it was so magical... so WOW... hahaha :) i swear all our jaws were agape when we were watching it... :) it showed us how sets could change without having props... only lights :) wait, did i say that correctly? hehehe :) o well... that's what we watched.. it's so amazing.. lastly, sir arranda let us watch portions of 'stomp out loud' :) really cooL group :) something like the clip shown in glorietta cinemas... :) the one with the people making music/sounds through the use of keys, brooms, mops, cans, etc. :) hehehe :) nice...

anyway, that's basically my day... :) nothing THAT special... except that it was mumsy's birthday :) hehe :) love her soooo much :)

till next time.. toodle-loo :) peace out! :)

new year, new life...

just got home from our annual chinese new year family reunion at ama's house :) good food.. i think i was the only one who got a piece of chocolate cake though... yum! :) hahahaha :) well, got the chance to chat with my cousins once again.. esp. jR.. :) shared the "tulungan mo ako" with them... it kinda freaked them out, esp. crystal i must say :P hahaha :) i better stop; if they read this entry, i might as well hide in my shell forever.. :) hahaha :)

well, i've had my fair share of tikoy already... haha :) happy chinese new year, guys! :) gong xi fa chai, hong paw na lai!! :) hahaha :) kidding :P

hmm... talked to one of my friends yesternight.. and well, talked things over... and reminded me stuff that i needed to reminded of every now and then.. silly mistakes that can cost me my reputation as a 'lady' :) hahaha :) but yeah, taught i'd turn a new leaf and see what'll happen in the future :) all i can say is that he's a really good guy... :) i don't know what's going on his mind or what he's doing right now, but i just hope that he's all right :) hey, that's what friends are for, right? :) hahaha :)

'carpe diem' doesn't come in handy all of the time.. gotta keep that in mind as well :) hahaha :)

also got the chance to talk to michie a while ago :) miss her so much... asked her how she was doing in admu and stuff like that... wonder when we'll have the chance to get together with the whole barakada... hahaha :) yet another barkada date not coming true, at least not YET coming true :) hahaha :)

anyways, i think i'll stop blabbing now :) it's 12:47 am.. :) happy chinese new year!!! :) more tikoy coming my way!!! :) hahaha :)

life oh life...

why am i home? i'm supposed to be at los baños right now... though i've had my share of complaining, tension, stress, want to scream and strangle someone, and fear of doing the wrong thing again... i really want to finish what i had started... if only it weren't chinese new year this weekend... hmph... wonder how the rest are doing in los baños right now... well, at least i get the consolation of going to our family reunion come saturday... food... hee hee :)

two of my college friends are having a pretty rough time right now... i wanna comfort them but i just don't know how to... it's weird when it comes to love life... i just can't seem to find the right words to say to someone who's depressed... don't want to give the wrong advice either.. o well, all i can say is that i know that both of my friends are strong and i know that they'll overcome their problems soon... the sooner the better...

*joey, just as shirley said, we're just here for yah... you aren't alone in this situation :) we love yah :) keep that in mind.. :) we take risks (like what you did) 'coz we deem it to be right... girl, you don't havta worry too much about it :) least you said what you had to say.. and lifted a burden off your chest... :) time will come to know what's gonna happen next... least you did your part :) cheer up! :)*

lastly, i just read the blog of one of my high school batch mates... their barkada gets together every now and then... they go out to eat and you can see their pictures together... waaaah!!!! i'm jealous!!!!!!!! :) hahahaha :) i HOPE SOMEONE FROM MY HIGH SCHOOL BARKADA READS THIS AND REMEMBERS THAT WE HAVEN'T SEEN ONE ANOTHER FOR A LONG, LONG TIME ALREADY!!!! :) hahahaha :) reading the blog of my high school batch mate made me miss all my high school batch mates all over again... the high school days... hehe :) and our high school yearbook... double hay.... :) hahahahaha :) still don't know when it's gonna be done... honestly... everyone just seems so busy with their own lives... even i don't have much time to call meetings or do stuff for the h.s. yearbook... o well, hope we do finish it SOON... hehe :)

till here... :)

still wishing that someone will text me today... it's hard to expect when you know it won't come anyway... hehe.. hurts.. but hey, c'est la vie :P hahaha :) i know... me=weirdo=hopeless romantic=freak!!!! :) hahaha :)

peace out! :)

today was one of the cool days i had... :) we held our class at ccp; sir arranda toured us and man, it was huge! hahaha :) i've never been to the ccp theaters before, so when i was actually stepping on the main deck of the theater, it felt like heaven :) hahaha :)

we went there at around 2:30 and class ended at around 5:30. however, we still had another show to catch, also at ccp... so my blockmates and i decided to wait for the time to come :) we killed time by staying at mocha blends.. and yeah, the girls in the block bonded there :) they were telling stories about their boyfriends and how their relationships were... it was cool listening to them... :) felt like a got to know all of them again... this time, our friendship was put to the next level :P hehehe :)

7:00... we were still at tropical hut munching away... and talking about the recorded thing hannah let us hear... creepy sound... there's this one girl singing a song by avril and then you can hear someone murmuring in the background... "tulungan mo ako.." *jeepers creepers* gives me the creeps just thinking about it... hehehe :) anyway, after realizing the time, we went straight to tanghalang huseng batute to watch an indian percussion concert...

i must say that the concert gave a whole new perception when it comes to indian music... :) the musicians were REALLY GOOD!!!! they played different kinds of instruments... i loved the beat of their drums.. the instrument wasn't exactly a drum, but something close to a drum... they were super cool.... really, i can't believe that i actually enjoyed the concert a lot... there's this one part when they asked the audience to participate by clapping along with the drum beats.. and i swear that i saw every single person in that room smile and clap along :) that's the power of music... you don't need words to understand one another :) hehehe :) as the ambassador said, music is a universal language :) then there's this one presentation of flutes... my god... i loved that performance... as in! all my problems floated away... i really was in a state of relaxation for that few minutes they were playing....

and to know that sir jed told us that the last time an indian concert like the one we watched was held here was still in the 1960's... lucky us to have watched this concert... :) hehe

too bad we didn't get the chance to hear the indian national anthem... but hey, i guess we could search for it :P hehehe :) oh yeah!!! one of the indian musicians had a crush on hannah!!!! hahahaha :) maybe it was because she looked indian too!!! :) haha :) well, have to stop now before hannah reads this and kills me :P hahaha :)

cooL day we had!!! :)

and what made my day better was the time before i went home... ;) hehe :) why? that's for me to know and for you NOT to find out :) hahahaha :)

thinking you've found true love, when it hasn't found you...

i'm at the students publications office right now... and just read the latest entry of someone's blog...

"thinking you've found true love, when it hasn't found you..." the one line that has been stuck in my head since that fortunate phone call... you guys can describe it to be a bad case of LSS (last song syndrome), thanks to my mp3 player songs... but then again, there's always the reason being that it's the state i am in right now.

i actually don't know what to do right now... i wanna write every single detail here, but that would be revealing my whole private life now, wouldn't it? hehehe :) all i can say is that there's this guy that i met just last month (i think...) i know i know... silly, isn't it? liking someone after knowing him for a short while... but what can i do? it ain't my fault if i fall easily...

it's actually my first time to feel this way... it's different... it's really different... it isn't just any crush that's gone by the next sunrise... i understand his part, and i respect his reasons...

the weird thing right now is i don't know what to do... most of my friends tell me to get on with my life... but i don't know why i'm having a hard time doing so... told yah i'm weird... hehe...

another question running through my head is if he ever liked me or not... was he just being nice or was he being true? i chose to believe his actions... yes, i felt that he liked me... but right now, i'm not sure if it was just my imagination or if it was real...

honestly... i dunno what to do... should i just move on with my life? or should i wait? as of now, my choice is to wait... but then again, when did i ever make the right choices...?

"come what may," the saying i live by... easy to say, but hard to do... esp. in cases like these...

have you ever felt that for once in your life, everything was perfect? there were imperfections, like stress and bad moods, but other than that, i felt really happy and everything was in place... i enjoyed every waking moment of my life... every single minute i lived... every text i received... every smile i saw.... every laugh i heard... every prayer i said... i loved everything... even my family saw how happy i was... and then, it all went away...

i know, silly me...

sad as i am, i still have to put on that happy face... :) a smile...

but yes, i miss him... a lot...