rainy days.

it's our second no-class day today. woohoo! :) storms hit manila and classes in all levels are suspended! actually, i don't know if having no classes is a blessing or a curse. i consider it a blessing since we don't have to go to our class (duh!) but i find it a curse 'cause when we do get back to class, the workload will pile up. also, our thesis is in a crisis mode right now. still having problems with our finances. and still don't have souvenir programs. woop-de-doo. i am sooo jumping with joy (sense the sarcasm?) hahaha :) but yeah, my thesis mates and i are practically floating on a piece of wood in the pacific ocean. that's how dead we are. not to mention that the show is, uh, 5 days from now! beat that! hahaha :) i am so in need of help.

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chatted with teddy yesterday. i was convincing him that i have multiple personality disorder. and that he, based from yesterday, was dealing with 5 different "me" personalities. there was ms. perky, ms. emo, ms. angry, ms. calm, and ms. i-don't-have-a-care-in-the-world. my personal favorite was the last one. our conversation for at least half an hour went like this:



teddy: so, how do you find the weather today?

ms. i-don't-have-a-care-in-the-world: i don't know. i don't have a care in the world.

teddy: *raised eyebrow*

ms. i-don't have-a-care-in-the-world: why are you raising your eyebrow at me? wait, i shouldn't be asking that question. i don't have a care in the world.



and the conversation went on and on and on... with me changing my personalities in mid-sentence. i am that sabog.

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hope our figaro entries make it to the final 12. i'm hoping and praying and wishing. *saying a short prayer*

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also got to chat with my ahia min. :) he's now taking up his medical degree (is that grammatically correct?) at UERM right now. he seems to be enjoying his stay there. good for him. well, at least i have a future doctor to go to. hahaha :) all i can say is that i'm proud of him. for making it that far. and so far he's the only one who actually knows this URL. so i'm guessing he'll most probably read this entry. if he does, well *kudos to everything you've done, hia min. :) keep up the good work. and self-esteem? don't belittle yourself. so what with what happened before? traumatic experiences are made for you to deal with and soon forget. :) aight? hugs to you. :)* and if he doesn't get the chance to read it, well.. nothing i can do there. hahaha :)

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from another window yesterday:



kac: ilang hours ba yung play?

esa: originally, it's being staged for 10 hours. but since thesis namin, my thesis mate cut it down to two hour.

kac: tanginang play yan! 10 hours?!?!?!?!



hahahahahaha :) i dunno.. i just kept laughing when i read the reply. hahaha :) okay.. maybe i AM stressed.

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my ym status message yesterday was a plain and simple word. "tangina." and i received lots of messages. hahaha :) it actually made my day better. really. i was on wits end already with the cost of the souvenir programs. we still don't have a printing company right now and the last we canvassed, one souvenir program will cost as 110Php at the cheapest!! wtf?! okay, i better stop before i actually curse out how i feel in this entry.



anyway, i had that status message and the first one who messaged me was my buddy. he was always one to make me laugh. :) teddy messaged me as well; thus, our weird conversation which can actually be made into a film script. not a bad idea.. hmmm (read above). hahaha :) then nick told me that he can't imagine me saying that and that he hoped everything was okay. aww... :) ahia fred's first message to me in a few month's time was, "wow, ang lutong ng staus mo ah." hahahaha :) even pao, jack, and geneve messaged me. hia vinne also told me to relax and chill.



i'm not proud of my status message or what. it was just how i felt that time.. and right now.. i was down in the dumps. i didn't and still don't know what to do with our monetary problems. who the hell likes money problems?! but guess having those people message me.. even if it was a one-liner or just a simple smile.. it melted my heart. there are still people out there who care.



guess that kinda answered some questions running in my mind ever since i had to deal with the "what happened with the two of you?" issues in school. angry glances from people i used to hang out with. pissed looks from people i used to share stories with. disappointment in the eyes of others. and cold shoulder treatment with the one i used to love.



we live in different worlds now - him and me. and i guess nothing, as in nothing, can bring back what we used to have. leave us to deal with our memories. they'll always be the happy ones.



but yeah, guess i realized that i'm not alone at all. that there are people who still care. but i guess i still need the assurance every now and then.



i am such an emo kid. hahaha :)