decision

damn.

my life is full of shit right now. worthless. unfair. prejudiced. controlled. i'm stuck in the middle. don't know where to go. i'm stuck.

hell broke loose. i'm drowning. no way out. i'm drowning. i'm helpless. i'm hopeless. no other way. i'm drowning.

i'm a coward.

no one understands. no one... damn it.

can't live like this anymore. just can't.

more than friends, less than lovers. for me, that's final. take it from me. i said that. it's what i want. my decision.

shit. i AM a coward. hypocrite. freak. coward.

people do become their hatest enemies. i'm becoming my own worst nightmare. double shit.

damn.

so help me God.

and help him understand. i can't do this anymore.

more than friends, less than lovers. that's my deal. take it or leave it.

damn.

courage. will. justice. freedom. choice. all gone. one remains. fear.

i am who i am. this is who i am. this is my life.

coward.

damn.