a gamble.

anger. it feels so powerful. rage. it feels so good.

i welcome the change. i need the change.

i can't be the old me anymore. the fun has drained within me.

a new life. a new beginning. maybe that's all there is for me.

everyone has their own time for "re-inventions." it's my time.


the grass isn't that green anymore. the water will never be as blue.

the wall is not that sturdy. every aspect is now new.

an old personality left behind. a guarded person's point of view.

a new chance to grow. a new story to be told.

when the right time comes, then may the grief and hurt unfold.


life now. happy and content. i guess there'll always be something missing. if we felt complete, then we wouldn't be striving to 'complete' ourselves. i played a game once in my life. i gambled with fate and faith. it's too early to tell if i have lost or won. but all i can say is that a new life now, i am bound to create.

i will miss you. and i will love you forever. but i guess there are things that need to be sacrificed. selfish but true. not just for me, but also for you.

he treats me well. and i do like him.

but as always, 'come what may.'

the gamble still continues. i am still in the game.