mood swings...

i gather i woke up at the wrong side of the bed today... why? well, my ever-so-reliable internal clock wakes me up at around 7 or 8am and then my not-so-reliable-mind makes my organs malfunction and makes me go back to sleep; thus, waking up and seeing the digits 9:44am on my celphone digital clock. "FREAK!!!! i woke up late... AGAIN!!!" good thing the first message i saw was from teddy, telling me that there were no classes today. woop-de-doo! and i was going to get the height measurements of m404 for my tecdra2 wall plan due next tues. so, no classes today = no measurements = no wall plan = no tecdra plate. o well, least there's still tomorrow and monday.. oi, cramming sessions start again...

i finished reading "the queen of everything" by deb caletti yesterday... i actually finished it by around 4 or 5 hours and 2 monumento to vito cruz LRT rides :) 372 pages... for a person who hasn't read a pocketbook for i-dunno-how-many-months now, the record isn't that bad :) hahaha :) well, it was actually a pretty good book.. full of swears and curses though.. but it was basically a pretty normal american teenage book. liked a lot lines in the book, but these were the two lines that struck me the most.

* "It's good to let God pick a man for you. We don't do so well when we pick them ourselves. They end up like lipsticks in a drawer, all those wrong colors you thought looked so good in the package."

* "They're waiting for you... all the people who love you."

we also watched "immotal beloved" for our mustud class yesterday... it's a classic. beethoven's death wish was to give his compositions to his immortal beloved, sending his secretary into a journey to beethoven's past... :) beethoven was actually a sweet fellow :) he was deaf, but he was sweet :)

* there will be no peace without the truth...

o well, till here... everyone seems so stressed out lately... can't wait for the break... really... i wanna leave this place, even just for a while...

plus, did you know that someone i cared for before actually deleted me in his friendster account? haha :) the last time i deleted a person in my account was for the sake of forgetting about him, but i added him again. hahaha :) stupid me. but this person was way weird.. well, he does have a point cuz we seem to live in different planets when we see each other in the school hallways... but hmm, he does have a point :) and well, acc. to dane... some men are just like that. they have their own reasons. maybe his reason was that he didn't want me to get hurt (knowing that i liked him before). maybe he just didn't want to become cold and selfish, saying things and knowing that it hurt me. maybe that was his reason. he just didn't want to see me hurt. yes, maybe that was it. :) that was what dane said.. he's a guy after all. i know i'm making these reasons up for even the gift of friendship wasn't given to me. and for this, i chose to believe dane. it might be the only thing to keep me sane and to keep me from doing the wrong things, both past and present... and we all know, some mistakes are never forgiven nor forgotten. these mistakes are usually committed in the journey called love.