hassle..

my 6600 has betrayed me... it broke down yesterday... actually, it was my fault since my celphone slipped from my fingers and reached the oh-so-heavenly floor with a thud. ouch!

my phone was locked.. and to unlock it, you had to press a button before the asterisk, right? well, that button didn't want to budge. it didn't work. imagine this: all buttons were working except for that button. and there was no alternative; i couldn't unlock my phone. and, well, i still can't unlock my phone since it's already with nokia care... *sniff sniff*

it was really weird because i realized how important a button that button is. without that, the whole phone can't function. just because of me locking my celphone.

7 people texted me yesterday night until morning a while ago... yes, i'm that excited about receiving text messages --> pathetic, i know... hahaha :) but do you know the feeling that that someone just might text you when you least expect him to? well, that's how i felt... i was really irritated since i couldn't see who texted me... and 7 messages.. really now... who could those texters be? hehehe :) bad thing is that i won't get to know who texted me... not now, not ever.... :(weird.. when my cel was ok, no one texted me.. and now that it's down, seem to be receiving more texts than usual :) hahaha :)

cel's with nokia care right now... the girl said to be back in 3 weeks at the least :( waaah!!!! something to do with them going to change the parts and going to REFORMAT my cel... huwhat?! good-bye contacts... good-bye text messages... good-bye schedule... :(( text messages!!!! waaah!!! i saved a lot of 'em!!! and it's now good-bye... :( argh!!!!!!

even his messages are gonna be gone... his messages that were super sweet for me that i've read them for i-don't-know-how-many-times-already... messages that were my memories of him... messages that were worth reading over and over again... and you wouldn't get tired of reading it... precious messages... all gone... gone... g-o-n-e...

gone. o.m.g. :(( waaah!!!! is this a sign?! stop thinking of him; get a grip; don't wish for things that won't happen at all because it hurts pretty damn much... i know, making a big issue out of nonsense... but come on, you can't blame a girl for wondering... is it a sign? is my cel telling me to let go of him? yes, that's how well my bond with my cel is... and now, it's being reformatted...

my schedules... gotta remind myself to keep schedules in a planner and not on the cel phone... waah!!!!

i dunno.. it's weird.. there's this quote i received from ahia han (i think...), goes something like this: "i have a mission to fulfill... to forget about you, not think about you, not talk about you, and not care about you at all. in short, mission impossible." sweet noh? :) hahaha :) well, what can i say? is this quotation actually applying to me in reality?

i've promised myself, like, a thousand times that i won't text him or message him, but i DID.. take note!! past tense!!! :) hahaha :) after like 2 ym messages and 2 texts, i decided to NOT DO ANYTHING anymore. and i did; nothing happened :) hahahaha :) didn't receive any message or text or anything as a matter of fact from him... i'm not saying that he should text or whatever because a part of me honestly knew that he wouldn't. guess there was just something called 'a glimmer of hope' that stayed within me for the past weeks..

it hasn't been long since i've promised myself to shut my mouth up when every single conversation i'm gonna have with my friends will be about him... do you know the feeling that when someone doesn't do something in that short while he has, he probably won't do anything about it for the rest of his life? well, that's how i feel right now...

and well, i'm proud to say that i THINK i've not mentioned him to my friends for about a week or so already :) as in him-free topics tlga! :) well, until now... hahahaha :)

well, i didn't promise that i wouldn't let my feelings out every now and then in my blog... hahaha :) i dunno.. it's weird... i don't even see him anymore (when we saw each other before, sadyang kita yun...) in short, we're incommunicado... (did i use that word correctly? hahaha)

oh well, enough grief for today...

oh yeah... God bless the souls of those people who were at ultra yesterday... stampede's can kill people... and it chose to kill Filipinos... a four-year old was killed too... what's happening to the world nowadays? tsk tsk tsk...