random thoughts

happy birthday to my mom! :) love her very much. love her dearly to the max. :)

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i'm here at the benildean yearbook office right now. just chatted with denmarc and told him that our film's already in eric's hands for scoring. i hope everything turns out well with the film.

i feel so left out here. i guess it may be because i haven't spent much time here in the office for the past term. But i do try to make up for the time lost. might be 'cause i'm not that close with the new staffers and that i do miss the bond i had with the old staffers, but being here in the office right now just seems different. i feel left out and, for quite some time now, the perkiness i used to have has toned down.

i want to be the person i was before - fun, carefree, and enjoyable. but i guess it'll take a lot of time and guts to bring that person back again.

maybe it's just me. i've changed. maybe that's why i feel left out. that's why, at times, i feel that no one understands me. i'm weird, that's a given. but i guess there are times my weird ness brings the best out in me.

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how can someone have that much hate in his heart? i don't remember doing much damage to his life, but him hating me is such a terrible issue. it's bad enough that our friendship was ruined, but bad-mouth me? tell another person that i'm going to ruin the person's life? i may be a bitch, but i don't have the guts to ruin someone's life.

i don't want this issue to bother me or anything. but i guess the feeling of knowing someone hates you stays in you till forever.

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race, place, and class - someone once told me that those are the three things that become big issues against us. maybe so or maybe not. only time can tell, or so they say.

what is happiness? for me, having everyone i love happy is my happiness. and i guess my happiness doesn't really depend on me... sad but true.

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dreamcatchers. so beautiful. so peaceful. so mysterious. so perfect in its own imperfections. why can't everything be that way? or am i the only one who doesn't allow it be?

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