freeze the moment

so... this is it. this it where it all must end.

a smile so bittersweet, a heart ache that crushes my whole soul.

i said good-bye with the hope that we will one day reconcile. stupid, i know. why let go in the first place, right? why not just fight all the way? it's probably because i couldn't take it anymore. the comments, the hatred, reality - it was eating me alive. but i still had hope. i had faith.

but i guess this is time for reality to sink in. i knew that you would be able to find someone new - someone better, someone who would take care of you and love you. i always knew that. but it hurt when i saw the reality of it all - pictures. you hugging her and vice versa. it stung. i have to admit. the both of you being so close together. there was a quote that once said, "you know that you love a person when the thought of him being with someone else is enough to break your heart." the quote was well said. those pictures were enough to be my downfall.

but i guess it was a must - for me to see those pictures. so that i can get on with my life. as you have gotten on with yours. honestly, i was ready for it. the knowledge that one day, you were going to find someone else. i was ready. i just don't know why i broke down last night, after seeing those pictures. i knew it would happen, then why the hurt and the pain?

silly, i know. i was the one who let go. i guess now i can say that the saying i've always kept in mind - what i decide will be my fate, and whatever happens, my decision will be mine to regret. - has come to life. but frankly, i don't regret my decision. because i know that it was the right thing to do - to stop people from breathing down our, or should i say my, neck(s).

it's a frustrating situation. it's a frustrating thing to fall in love. and through this relationship i had, i can say one thing : love is truly a fragile thing.

always and forever, i guess. be it together or apart. memories are forever. freeze the moment when good memories come to mind. and smile.

it's time to move on.

and i'm saying this with true sincerity : i'm happy for you. i'm glad that you've found someone else. and i will keep praying for you.